So near yet so far... LOL!!!! wt a joke huh??... wtever tt we've use to do... its taking us double oor even triple the effort to do it... hw can sm1 change so much huh?? possible?? =x LOL!!!! even after doing so much ting for u.. onli 1 thank you??? what abt those surprised faces?? wt abt those happy face... teary eyes?? or izit tt you've grown immune to it?? hv i been doing so much tt u're jux bored and entertaining me??? izit?? or have u simply grown from that sweet innoncent girl to some1 that i dun even knw ani longer..... isit my fault for making u cry back then?? isit tt incident that changed everiting..? dun leave mi finding answers on my own... it sucks... dun simply leave me behind and walk out of my life... it reali sux... e feeling...

bt to end in a brighter way... LOL~!! show u all my new WIFE!!!... PARK SHIN HYE!!!!! woots... GO MIN NAM!!!! LOVE LOVE~

i knw i damm long no blog le.. and perhaps nobodi remebers it le...

why is it that i am who i am todae.... i reali hate who i am...

your blur face... your sweet smile.. your non-creative ideas and most importantly, your beautiful character.. you really never gave mi any chance to hate you, any reason to stop tinking abt you and stop loving you... everitime i thought of some stupid stuff tt i wanna do.. your face just appeared in my mindd.. everitime i wanna talk to someone.. i'll w/h ani reason try to find your name on msn.. i'm just that dumb cause i knw... you'll nvr be mine....

PM:
Its hard to wait ard for smting you know might never happen,
But
its even harder to give up when you know,
its everything you want.

and i'm walking down the harder path.....

tis semester is really a difficult one.... its challenging and taxing....

a 5cu subject and i am teamed up wif wj and a useless guy NT FRM MY CLASS.... ok he maybe not as wt i described bt defitnely cant help much.... just hope he wont drag me and wj down... tis is my last yr and those whom knw me.. i reali wan to achieve and score DAMM DAMM well... but..... no comments....

i want to go for OSIP... bt due to certain factors.. my mum dun allow... i hate being a mummy boy... i hate being taken so good care by her.. i knw she love me.. but she does nt knw tt her son wants to learn... wants to see the world... want to achieve someting BIGGER than wt she hoped from me.... she may nt hv ani hopes for me to begin with.. since i am the odd one from the family ever since secondary sch... due to bad influence to religious reasons... they jux gave up hope on me ever since then.. and i have given up hope of them ever since then too.....

and sch reopen had nt been veri enjoyable for me... due to several reasons... bt 2 events reali made mi damm damm hapi and glad... firstly, finally FINALLY FINALLY wtever tt i had done has been recongized and appericated... tt is the most MOST MOST sastifying response i can hv... thank you jun wei ......... and good job.......... maybe ppl jux take it for granted tt i hv to do certain tings.. ITS MY JOB to do so... and I AM CAPABLE OF DOING IT... but... who knws i hate doing those tings.. i'm doing it as a favor... bt no thank you... no good job... just being taken for granted and sometimes nt even a bye bye... so thank God tt when i need assurance he gave it to me.. and there's a saying..

Good tings comes in pair....

well... fair enough for my case... its an achievement tt i've been working damm hard towards.. and i thought i do not stand a chance in it... but alas... i got the letter...and i'm in... well.. i seriously do not knw hw i am capable of doing so but... it just means tt i've to keep working hard and no slacking... even w/h shaun in my teams... i must produce standards akin to when he is guiding me along... well.. glory and honor to Him....

thank God =)

responsibilities will damage relationships....

maybe i tink too much..

maybe i nt sensitive enough..

maybe i'm a retard...

maybe i'm simply nt gd enough....

TO lead.....

sundae will be the day when i fly overseas.. to hai nan dao.. i was SO SO SO looking forward to it... but nt animore.... i dread flying there.... lots of tings wanna sae bt dun tink i shld sae... tings are nt going as well as planned... i am nt doing as well as expected... or perhaps i am jux thrash... can be done w/h....

its very irritating... super.... maybe i am too bossy... maybe my character sux... i tink its jux enough... lets do wtever everibodi wans ba... hahax... aniwae... its jux another OCP ... its jux another ting tt they had no interest in... slacking ard.. nt being serious... so rather then being outcaste by them.. why nt jux hack.... cant take it... its driving me nuts... lets jux get it done and over wif.... damm it....

went to sotong blog and saw this link : http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx.. so went to do it...

freakish shit.. some psyco tingy which sounds veri me... LOL's... ok.. some parts nt ME... bt MOSTLY are ME..


Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.

Holiday have been fun as i got to catch up and spend some reasonable valuable time wif closed / lost ones.. HAHA.. like cheng and co.. san jie and co.. and ofcourse.. sotong... ( well tings jux dun happen e way i thought ) ... and enjoying the whole time.. till i got back my noob shit results... i'm nt back at my 3.3.. life and reality is reali harsh... and wif my current gpa.. i can forget abt getting into a local-U... and oversea studying? impossible.. my family do not have tt capability to support me..

so wt to do??? find another alternative... bt... i'm trusting in the Lord to guide mi once again.. as he had so mani times b4... so i shall Trust and obey.. its defitnely nt easy.. bt its worth it... as in poly.. gt to knw these crazy ass holes in my class.. haha.. w/h them my life in poly is DULL..... haha..

ask mi out anibodi.. i'm bored at home... =x bowling?? badminton?? basketball?? hang out?? slack?? crap?? pls.... =x

ok.. damm long no blog..cause no feel to blog...

and i am blogging now is onli due to a reason..

I AM DAMM BORED~!!!!

cause my laptop adapter spoilted... amazing huh???

i onli realized when i was in sch...suddenly i found tt my screen became dimmed..i thought sm kuku go switch off my power..bt no lei..then i checked the adapter.. not loose lei..then i moved it abit..and ok le.. then i realized.. OMG.. abit cock le..

it worsen over the next 2 days and i hv to hold my adapter as the wire is loose so i hv to "tighen" it with my hand while playing dota wif dave and e rest.. lol's... then i bth..need go change le...

so i skipped my SWEN lecture and tutorial to go to alexandar road where e hp service center is located.. erm.. nt diffcult to get there bt seriously not easy-.-" well..if it was meh meh who is making the way there alone.. bet she will be lost.. she gt totally no sense of direction..worst then mi-.-" wakakakax...

however, after waiting and checking of my laptop and adapter.. e guy ask mi go get a new adapter-.-" and knw wt... ITS OUT OF STOCK...

bt thank god my bro went for re-service so i can atleast use e desktop.. bt wif no game no nth on it... its like omg... i seriously miss my laptop.. e person sae adapter coming in nxt week..and will give mi a call..he better do so... argh~~~.. i'm dying w/h my adapater!!!!!...

jess was saying my laptop is like my laopo... aaa..actually not reali..wt is inside it tt reali makes mi miss it.. hahax..nt my laptop.. LOL~!!! i miss my games.. i miss my blogs... i miss my music.. i miss my movies.. i miss you... =x sadded...

ok.. and its the last phrase of 2.2 blk teaching.. wif msyd lab test tml.. swen presentation and lab test on tuesdae and its 2nd written on wed and my onli exam paper of EBM on 22nd i tink.. i'm looking forward to holidae..

and hai nan trip.. erm.. hope it is gonna be fun... haha.. and e girls are organizing chalet.. lols'.. 1st time see them so enthu.. claps claps for them.. in booking collecting money and planning till now.. bt they abit gan jiong.. shld focus on studies first..after exam still gt so much time to go prepare.. hahax.. no worries la.. the other ppl will help out de=) wakakax..

val day is coming..and I am going to spend it so meaningfully... occupied by church stuff as usual for my saturdae.. it was conclusion and not B.S de..bt they changed it to B.S.. which i am nt prepared... dun reali like it wif e way they are doing tings bt well... give and take ba.. haha..

i am so so so sos so bored now.. anibodi wan entertain me... sadded... shall continue mugging le ba... HAIX.... stupie msyd... argh~ and i am quite pleased wif my ebm results thus far...bt totally hate my swen result.. overall i onli got a C.. which is a NO NO to get tis sem.. i aim to get B+ and above..so i hv to chiong for swen.. i wan my 3.3 back... i miss you my 3.3.. argh~...

kk..tata...

Well...tis marks the entry to keep my blog more alive then meh x2 de... lol's..

erm.. last sundae was b/d celebration for bear x2... so we went to shop at giant..and lol's.. realized someting.. i can shop and do glossary better then some girls... LOL's!!!!! ok... and i knw wt my classmate likes to EAT!!!!... well for steam boat=x hahax... so we shopped and jess dad drove us to her hse.. while her family(exclude her) goes to her grandma hse...=x

it was ard 4 plus when we reached..however we did nt start steamboat preparation.. we slacked adn watched 21.. WHEN THERE IS A FREAKING TEST THE FOLLOWING DAY!!!!!.... Jess knw hw to plan tings when we are at our end..(no money no time).WEll..atleast she plan tings now..=p as i have said tis yr i aint no gonna do ani planning... WAKAKAKAKAX... CEO steps down... erm... then when we started preparing the tings... ppl started to came in and yar our veri new teacher Mr Sam Tang... and his gf also came..

and it a BIG question mark why they( Girls ) asked tang and nvr asked our C.P Dr.Yap... cause when we started dinning, the guys was sitted 2gather while the girls are seated 2gather wif sam and his gf.. we realized and wondered why yap was not here=x felt veri bad.. for me... if given a choice.. i'll not ask sam bt rather mr yap.... well...tt's me.. and i cant sae aniting cause jess was organizer and it was her hse.. so well....

it gonna be fierce tis december... as projects, presentations and Church's Christmas deco is coming up.... omg omg... and so much is waiting for me to go and do... never wear a big hat when u dun hv such a big head.. i realized tt... onli when its too late... cause i have such a small head....

then it was saralyn, wanying and ah hua b/d... send them wishes and seriously hope to catch up wif ah hua again... after our "brothers" gather tt time.. lol's.. atleast once b4 he enters the army..

Got back some of my results... my CMSK suckx.. i do not know why i got a D+ for my Resume and cover letter... its i dunno... then my interview i onli gt a B... so add up.. the most i can get is a C+.... i need a B atleast.... tt was my goal for this sem.. no Grades beyond B..

Then was my interim report and my msid user guide... well.. sam said my Msid user guide quite gd..B or A... then my interim report got an A.. well good starts..bt still gt a project and written test each... written test sam said "i dunno wt the hell did u study".. i was shocked and sianx.. bt still... CHIONG FOR PROJECT!!!! =x

Serious...w/h shaun.. i tink our grp reali cmi... we all struggling... lucky gt him.. reali tks to him.. gd frien..gd brother... shall leech u for life!!! hahax.

till then... MY LIVELY BLOG!!!