Kazuki's Undefined World

2010-01-05T07:07:00.000-08:00

So near yet so far... LOL!!!! wt a joke huh??... wtever tt we've use to do... its taking us double oor even triple the effort to do it... hw can sm1 change so much huh?? possible?? =x LOL!!!! even after doing so much ting for u.. onli 1 thank you??? what abt those surprised faces?? wt abt those happy face... teary eyes?? or izit tt you've grown immune to it?? hv i been doing so much tt u're jux bored and entertaining me??? izit?? or have u simply grown from that sweet innoncent girl to some1 that i dun even knw ani longer..... isit my fault for making u cry back then?? isit tt incident that changed everiting..? dun leave mi finding answers on my own... it sucks... dun simply leave me behind and walk out of my life... it reali sux... e feeling...

bt to end in a brighter way... LOL~!! show u all my new WIFE!!!... PARK SHIN HYE!!!!! woots... GO MIN NAM!!!! LOVE LOVE~

2009-11-21T20:14:00.001-08:00

i knw i damm long no blog le.. and perhaps nobodi remebers it le...

why is it that i am who i am todae.... i reali hate who i am...

your blur face... your sweet smile.. your non-creative ideas and most importantly, your beautiful character.. you really never gave mi any chance to hate you, any reason to stop tinking abt you and stop loving you... everitime i thought of some stupid stuff tt i wanna do.. your face just appeared in my mindd.. everitime i wanna talk to someone.. i'll w/h ani reason try to find your name on msn.. i'm just that dumb cause i knw... you'll nvr be mine....

PM:
Its hard to wait ard for smting you know might never happen,
But
its even harder to give up when you know,
its everything you want.

and i'm walking down the harder path.....

2009-05-13T04:01:00.000-07:00

tis semester is really a difficult one.... its challenging and taxing....

a 5cu subject and i am teamed up wif wj and a useless guy NT FRM MY CLASS.... ok he maybe not as wt i described bt defitnely cant help much.... just hope he wont drag me and wj down... tis is my last yr and those whom knw me.. i reali wan to achieve and score DAMM DAMM well... but..... no comments....

i want to go for OSIP... bt due to certain factors.. my mum dun allow... i hate being a mummy boy... i hate being taken so good care by her.. i knw she love me.. but she does nt knw tt her son wants to learn... wants to see the world... want to achieve someting BIGGER than wt she hoped from me.... she may nt hv ani hopes for me to begin with.. since i am the odd one from the family ever since secondary sch... due to bad influence to religious reasons... they jux gave up hope on me ever since then.. and i have given up hope of them ever since then too.....

and sch reopen had nt been veri enjoyable for me... due to several reasons... bt 2 events reali made mi damm damm hapi and glad... firstly, finally FINALLY FINALLY wtever tt i had done has been recongized and appericated... tt is the most MOST MOST sastifying response i can hv... thank you jun wei ......... and good job.......... maybe ppl jux take it for granted tt i hv to do certain tings.. ITS MY JOB to do so... and I AM CAPABLE OF DOING IT... but... who knws i hate doing those tings.. i'm doing it as a favor... bt no thank you... no good job... just being taken for granted and sometimes nt even a bye bye... so thank God tt when i need assurance he gave it to me.. and there's a saying..

Good tings comes in pair....

well... fair enough for my case... its an achievement tt i've been working damm hard towards.. and i thought i do not stand a chance in it... but alas... i got the letter...and i'm in... well.. i seriously do not knw hw i am capable of doing so but... it just means tt i've to keep working hard and no slacking... even w/h shaun in my teams... i must produce standards akin to when he is guiding me along... well.. glory and honor to Him....

thank God =)

2009-04-01T05:25:00.001-07:00

responsibilities will damage relationships....

maybe i tink too much..

maybe i nt sensitive enough..

maybe i'm a retard...

maybe i'm simply nt gd enough....

TO lead.....

sundae will be the day when i fly overseas.. to hai nan dao.. i was SO SO SO looking forward to it... but nt animore.... i dread flying there.... lots of tings wanna sae bt dun tink i shld sae... tings are nt going as well as planned... i am nt doing as well as expected... or perhaps i am jux thrash... can be done w/h....

its very irritating... super.... maybe i am too bossy... maybe my character sux... i tink its jux enough... lets do wtever everibodi wans ba... hahax... aniwae... its jux another OCP ... its jux another ting tt they had no interest in... slacking ard.. nt being serious... so rather then being outcaste by them.. why nt jux hack.... cant take it... its driving me nuts... lets jux get it done and over wif.... damm it....

2009-03-16T07:48:00.000-07:00

went to sotong blog and saw this link : http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx.. so went to do it...

freakish shit.. some psyco tingy which sounds veri me... LOL's... ok.. some parts nt ME... bt MOSTLY are ME..

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.

Holiday have been fun as i got to catch up and spend some reasonable valuable time wif closed / lost ones.. HAHA.. like cheng and co.. san jie and co.. and ofcourse.. sotong... ( well tings jux dun happen e way i thought ) ... and enjoying the whole time.. till i got back my noob shit results... i'm nt back at my 3.3.. life and reality is reali harsh... and wif my current gpa.. i can forget abt getting into a local-U... and oversea studying? impossible.. my family do not have tt capability to support me..

so wt to do??? find another alternative... bt... i'm trusting in the Lord to guide mi once again.. as he had so mani times b4... so i shall Trust and obey.. its defitnely nt easy.. bt its worth it... as in poly.. gt to knw these crazy ass holes in my class.. haha.. w/h them my life in poly is DULL..... haha..

ask mi out anibodi.. i'm bored at home... =x bowling?? badminton?? basketball?? hang out?? slack?? crap?? pls.... =x

2009-02-11T19:59:00.000-08:00

ok.. damm long no blog..cause no feel to blog...

and i am blogging now is onli due to a reason..

I AM DAMM BORED~!!!!

cause my laptop adapter spoilted... amazing huh???

i onli realized when i was in sch...suddenly i found tt my screen became dimmed..i thought sm kuku go switch off my power..bt no lei..then i checked the adapter.. not loose lei..then i moved it abit..and ok le.. then i realized.. OMG.. abit cock le..

it worsen over the next 2 days and i hv to hold my adapter as the wire is loose so i hv to "tighen" it with my hand while playing dota wif dave and e rest.. lol's... then i bth..need go change le...

so i skipped my SWEN lecture and tutorial to go to alexandar road where e hp service center is located.. erm.. nt diffcult to get there bt seriously not easy-.-" well..if it was meh meh who is making the way there alone.. bet she will be lost.. she gt totally no sense of direction..worst then mi-.-" wakakakax...

however, after waiting and checking of my laptop and adapter.. e guy ask mi go get a new adapter-.-" and knw wt... ITS OUT OF STOCK...

bt thank god my bro went for re-service so i can atleast use e desktop.. bt wif no game no nth on it... its like omg... i seriously miss my laptop.. e person sae adapter coming in nxt week..and will give mi a call..he better do so... argh~~~.. i'm dying w/h my adapater!!!!!...

jess was saying my laptop is like my laopo... aaa..actually not reali..wt is inside it tt reali makes mi miss it.. hahax..nt my laptop.. LOL~!!! i miss my games.. i miss my blogs... i miss my music.. i miss my movies.. i miss you... =x sadded...

ok.. and its the last phrase of 2.2 blk teaching.. wif msyd lab test tml.. swen presentation and lab test on tuesdae and its 2nd written on wed and my onli exam paper of EBM on 22nd i tink.. i'm looking forward to holidae..

and hai nan trip.. erm.. hope it is gonna be fun... haha.. and e girls are organizing chalet.. lols'.. 1st time see them so enthu.. claps claps for them.. in booking collecting money and planning till now.. bt they abit gan jiong.. shld focus on studies first..after exam still gt so much time to go prepare.. hahax.. no worries la.. the other ppl will help out de=) wakakax..

val day is coming..and I am going to spend it so meaningfully... occupied by church stuff as usual for my saturdae.. it was conclusion and not B.S de..bt they changed it to B.S.. which i am nt prepared... dun reali like it wif e way they are doing tings bt well... give and take ba.. haha..

i am so so so sos so bored now.. anibodi wan entertain me... sadded... shall continue mugging le ba... HAIX.... stupie msyd... argh~ and i am quite pleased wif my ebm results thus far...bt totally hate my swen result.. overall i onli got a C.. which is a NO NO to get tis sem.. i aim to get B+ and above..so i hv to chiong for swen.. i wan my 3.3 back... i miss you my 3.3.. argh~...

kk..tata...

2008-11-27T04:20:00.000-08:00

Well...tis marks the entry to keep my blog more alive then meh x2 de... lol's..

erm.. last sundae was b/d celebration for bear x2... so we went to shop at giant..and lol's.. realized someting.. i can shop and do glossary better then some girls... LOL's!!!!! ok... and i knw wt my classmate likes to EAT!!!!... well for steam boat=x hahax... so we shopped and jess dad drove us to her hse.. while her family(exclude her) goes to her grandma hse...=x

it was ard 4 plus when we reached..however we did nt start steamboat preparation.. we slacked adn watched 21.. WHEN THERE IS A FREAKING TEST THE FOLLOWING DAY!!!!!.... Jess knw hw to plan tings when we are at our end..(no money no time).WEll..atleast she plan tings now..=p as i have said tis yr i aint no gonna do ani planning... WAKAKAKAKAX... CEO steps down... erm... then when we started preparing the tings... ppl started to came in and yar our veri new teacher Mr Sam Tang... and his gf also came..

and it a BIG question mark why they( Girls ) asked tang and nvr asked our C.P Dr.Yap... cause when we started dinning, the guys was sitted 2gather while the girls are seated 2gather wif sam and his gf.. we realized and wondered why yap was not here=x felt veri bad.. for me... if given a choice.. i'll not ask sam bt rather mr yap.... well...tt's me.. and i cant sae aniting cause jess was organizer and it was her hse.. so well....

it gonna be fierce tis december... as projects, presentations and Church's Christmas deco is coming up.... omg omg... and so much is waiting for me to go and do... never wear a big hat when u dun hv such a big head.. i realized tt... onli when its too late... cause i have such a small head....

then it was saralyn, wanying and ah hua b/d... send them wishes and seriously hope to catch up wif ah hua again... after our "brothers" gather tt time.. lol's.. atleast once b4 he enters the army..

Got back some of my results... my CMSK suckx.. i do not know why i got a D+ for my Resume and cover letter... its i dunno... then my interview i onli gt a B... so add up.. the most i can get is a C+.... i need a B atleast.... tt was my goal for this sem.. no Grades beyond B..

Then was my interim report and my msid user guide... well.. sam said my Msid user guide quite gd..B or A... then my interim report got an A.. well good starts..bt still gt a project and written test each... written test sam said "i dunno wt the hell did u study".. i was shocked and sianx.. bt still... CHIONG FOR PROJECT!!!! =x

Serious...w/h shaun.. i tink our grp reali cmi... we all struggling... lucky gt him.. reali tks to him.. gd frien..gd brother... shall leech u for life!!! hahax.

till then... MY LIVELY BLOG!!!

2008-11-17T07:22:00.000-08:00

Lol's.. shall do some blogging...

well... Block teaching is no joke... bt it is still a pharse in my life that i have to get over with... as i was talking alot to mehmeh... poly will be jux a stepping stone for me to get into jc.. i must say i do not enjoy doing what i am doing now... but the world out there is so pratical... so no choice... hahax... got to chiong for my future and my family's future.. lol's...

chatted alot wif meh meh over dinner.. and.. LEARNED alot of "tings".. hahax~!!! tks ar..=p

well let the pics do the talking as usual... =)

Dinner with meh meh... erm... 2 different occasions.. bt since gonna post it so 2gather la.. lols..although the 1st pic is dunno hw long ago=x wakakakx

Dinner at shokudo at Raffles city.. First time there... but wont be the last..as the FOOD is DAMM NICE~ i swear i'm going back... when i am loaded again=x ( its expensive ) but worthwhile=D

Eat until very full though... gt 1 desert... nvr take down onli.. cause too engrossed in eating it.. forget to take it down... WAKAKAKAKAX~!!!!

The real thing that made mi offically broke=x *present*

Cute croc which can POP out its eye... lol's...

2008-10-08T20:42:00.000-07:00

firstly recall wt i did...

fun started last fri....
met dick and went to collect cake for jackys' b/d... then we went to the restraunt in a cab as we did nt knw where... upon reaching... we were like so isolated... onli e 2 of us.. we reached ard 6.30...and waited till abt 7.20 for the 1st person to come?? which is daniel..then subsequently the rest come popping by... had quite a filling meal bt nt reali fun for me.. sitting in 1 corner as if in my own world... -.-" then went to cz hse... played crapped and do stupid tings till morning mac breakfast...and tis sat dun need go church.. woooo~!!!! off day... lol's... cause e sec sch students exam...

Sat..
after mac wif them rushed home bath and off to malaysia... our 1st stop is jesco if i spelled correctly.. a shopping mall of the likes of vivo?? the tings there are nt cheap... from there i onli got myself a watch... from tis shop called vincci... then saw some stuff bt was expensive so nvr buy... then we makan.. then shop abt 2 hr..then makan jap food... e girl she is damm cute... lol's.. ok she is nt e type of HOT girl... bt is cute in her own way.. abit blur... polite.. nice eyes... and friendly... she's damm sweet... too bad she nt s'porean.. haix.. if nt i die also will take her number..=p then we shopped again... and then we went to city square... ALOT ppl..bt tt place is more for youngster... however i jux dun hv mood to do shopping... then it was coffee time... my treat... then they order order... 80RM... well..wtever..then we went for the 5-in-1 massage... my feet no feeling..as if tt guy nvr use strength like tt...then my back... pain like hell..like he is saving all the strength for my back.. lol's.. bt the guy was nice.. then as cousin nt feeling well.. so no seafood..we da bao go back s'pore.. which Eeww... then tada.. slp....

sundae...
home..

mondae...
went to dorigo house to play majong..wow.. i won 3 rounds.. lol's.. then i gt e pong pong hu... damm shiok... then they play cheat.... "CHI" eat.. bigger then "PONG"... wtf.. lol's.. if nt i tink i win more liaox... hahahx..then went home dota....

tuesdae...
met dave and rest then we went k-box... wanted to collect my pay..but in the end they sae i need go down head office to collect... then sianx..bt sing alot of songs... cause onli 5 of us ... then actually alot of tins cannot refill de.. but as i was ex staff... self service was wt zax said.. lol's.. then went ahead to self service=D then after tt.. we chased bus and waited for bus as one of the bus chasing was a failure.. lol's.. then after which i eunice qh went to eat hong kong cafe... then we crapped and ate till 11.30 i suppose.. were talking alot of "TONG NIAN WANG SHI" lol's..

wednes...
went down to head office return uniform and collect pay... then went to meet mark they all to watch movie.. 4 bucks per ticket=D wakakax..cause senior citizen rate.. lol's.. cavin staff there.. then they sm hw cheated.. lol's.. watched hse bunny.. funi and sexy... if u understand their unlying jokes.. hahax.. then we went to play pool till 10.. but un-fortunately dog lost his laptop..then haix.. dunno wt happen after tt..cause he onli fond out later later when i reached home and bathed.. hahax.. sadded..unlucky him...

thursdae...
reflection... i reali tink tt i hv made the wrong choice... ever since i entered poly..it has alwax been a dream and ambition tt i wanted to be main comm of iitsc or maybe even tpsu... however i made a choice last yr..to be in sion christian church de youth main comm... and i did nt get the position tt i wanted.. i got service department.. well.. after 1 yr.. and everiting tt has happened... i tink if i did nt accept tt job back then..and i maybe a happier guy now.. w/h so much burden and reponsibility... to be frank... who is truely working hard in that comm??? i dare sae i gave my 101% for them.... jacky and xuan the pres and vice-pres and edward are like the onli ones tt are actively doing tings... eric and deb...simply invisible...they are in-between campus crusade and SCC... bt they seemed to focus more on tt side's event... then dick.. onli a sect..cant do much... nvr send minutes and agenda on time..and nvr remind us of meeting.. crap... try... nt even in church most of the time..and she is the welfare head..most of the ting throw to others to do.. like me and xiao min.. she onli buy presents... i tink we can do w/h tis kind of welfare person.. even in her own cell grp.. she is nt 1 tt is welfaring.. i dun reali regard her as 1 of my cell grp member though... well... dunno why i suddenly feel nvm... hv been the sai kang warrior for quite some time.... i dun reali mind..bt the others... they are jux to put it blunt..useless...

struggling...struggling... wonder if anibodi will understand... wonder if anibodi knw... wonder if tis is wt God wan me to go thru... well... life hv to go on... i'll jux see hw as time passes by...

2008-09-30T00:15:00.000-07:00

you talk all abt growing up... blah blah blah... u r still as childish as ever.. u've nt grown up yet.. u are still the pampered girl i first knew you.. ppl tink u hv grown up and everyting.. bt u are onli putting up an act.. deep inside u are still not matured enough...

you tink after all that blabbering tt u've posted on ur blog tings will reali be fine??? u said tt u jux needed to complain.. no offence?? u tink tt we will be the same as we were?? stop being childish.. u hv to take responsibility for the tings tt u said and did.. u said nw u are shy to see me.. bt i dun even wish to see u... wt u said still linger in my mind... the words still whispers ard my ears... u said i am the onli 1 for u to rely on.. bt who has i to rely on...

i am doing so mani tings tt i do nt even wan to do... i am taking up so mani tings tt i never wanted to do... and who have i to rely on??? everibodi's gone... da jie is gone... last time i alwax whine to her... she alwax gives mi good advices.. she's alwax there for me.. bt she nw so busy..wif jie fu also... san jie also need her own time wif jacky... for you... u have long gone out of my life liaox... you may nt hv realized it.. bt i no longer treated u e way i once did... it has been fun wif u ard... bt i tink its time to face reality...

sometings never change...

sometings does...

and when it does...

its never gonna be the same....

2008-09-28T09:11:00.000-07:00

after reading ur blog i dunno if i shld tel u some tings...

i dunno hw to face u...

although u do nt knw tis blog of mine... bt i still dunno hw to sae it out....

e way i treated u...

i'm sorry...

i had my reason for doing tings...

all i can sae is...

sorry...

2008-09-23T00:33:00.000-07:00

Finally never had such excitment liaox.. hahax...

meeting sista shortie on fri~!!!! hahahax... going to have a feast? bt i dunno wt feast is tt... well.. wif her hahahax... sure is gd food..=p hey my kampong chicken!!!!! when!?!?!?! lol's.. finally getting to see her after.. god knws hw long.. lol's... well alot to catch up=D hahax...

actually also excited abt thursdae.. asked sotong when is she free..she said thursdae and fri.. so i sae whole dae or wt? she sae whole dae..ok i booked u.. tt is wt i told her.. bt i dunno wt to do yet... so tinking.. finding tings to do 2gather.. then the nxt dae when i came out wif wt to do.. she tel mi she 5.15 meeting sm1 at city hall mrt station.. i ji tao pissed.. cause tis is nt the 1st time such tings happen... wanna spend time wif each other bt she jux dunno hw to appericate or shld i sae she jux dunno hw to arrange her timing.. maybe tt other person more important..so when she tel mi she nt free frm 5.15 onwards i totally dun wan go out liaox.. then todae she msg mi sae jie is free... blah blah.. shall we meet for lunch... i did nt reply... cause i... duno.. i dun like such a feeling.. if u are nt free then dun be free at all... damm it... hack care.. and to tink i even planned her b/d tingy liaox.. stupid ass... as if i am going to carry it out now... no way...

maybe going out tml wif ah toot and birdy.. lol's...bt the show she wan to watch erm... jap de metor garden....-.-" hahax... quite.. lol's... u knw... hahax... bt ok la... the girl abit cute.. bt now birdy sae she 5 or wt need to go liaox... so dun tink will be going out... and i still hv a task tt i need to do... haix.. well.. shall see when i and sm of the rest free then shall go and do tt...

although it is holidae.. it seemed tt alot of ppl are busy wif their own stuff... and at tis rate.. lol's... yy.. i seriously tink tt c175 wont last... lols.... well.. we shall let the future spill the beans itself.. =)

2008-09-12T20:52:00.000-07:00

wow..i'm back... ok... i knw long never blog.. bt here is my first entry in decades.. lol's...

firstly... shiok ting... i'm in SIG~!!!.. wakakakax... quite happy cause tt is wherei wanna be in tis yr.. lol's.. but post nt wt i wanted... haix... nvm... lol's... then i gt nth to be in charged of... reason being... MWC dun hv oct intake.. so dun hv oct-intake orietation camp... PUI~ so jux helping others out....

secondly... results are out.. and i am quite pleased with my results... i shot back to 3 pointer range=D wakakakax... wait for me my 3.5... 3 more sem... chiong till i die also wan 3.5 la... lol's..atleast my hard work paid off.. hehe!!

thirdly... i am working now...!!!! at leisure park kallang de k-box... erm.. work load...average.. they sae sat night is the worst and i am going to experience it todae... OmG~!!! then my shift is frm 3-11 ah bo is 8-4am... imba not....-.-" life is totally screwed up... BUT BUT BUT... i LIKE IT!!!!.. hahahax... esp yst my first 8-4am shift.. wa shiok de lor... erm.. dunno hw to sae bt i love the streets w/h ppl and i simply enjoy time alone... wakakakax.... so anibodi wan come k-box??? lol's...

forthly... up coming church activities.... well.... nt prepared yet...and my grp gt the toughest route... then my grp members...OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!! i seriously wan to KAM PIA die.... bt well... nth i can do abt it anyway... so stop whinning...

lastly... i blogged cause meh meh asked mi to-.-" in her tag board..although lag quite some time bt i still tagged.. cause nw gt time so i blog abit ba... hahahx.. STOP COMPLAING TT I NEVER BLOG!!!!...ARGH!!!!....

nxt sem class will be different.. wonder who will be in my class.. will c175 still stay...or will it break... i dunno.. i hope its nt the latter....

2008-08-03T08:55:00.000-07:00

sometings matters to me... matters alot to me.. tt is why i am so freaking looking forward to it.. bt.. it takes 2 hands to clap... well... it seemed like another story to u.. well.. somtimes i tink..nting matters... i matter tings tt does nt matter to other too much...

fop was great.. i love the speaker... simply awesome... i'm childish/child-like.. ??? ha... for god to knw.and we to find out...

smtings jux cant be the same... b/d is coming..bt nt feeling excited at all... dun feel like celebrating it at all... i jux gt 1 wish... and onli 1 wish... hope it comes true.. stress stress...

tata..~

2008-07-26T21:36:00.000-07:00

todae is meh's b/d... hehe!! happy b/d shortie=D dunno when then can celebrate for u bt it will come=D

sch hv been alright.. the worst part has yet to come.. so brace urself 2gather and face it...

smtings are better left unsaid.. facing it on my own...

wish i had some1 to talk to.. bt jux cant find ani... facing my giants... ARGH~!!!!!!!!!!

2008-07-17T08:50:00.000-07:00

i guess after all... its best to keep my mouth shut..

nthing nice and gd comes out frm my mouth...

i'm reali sorry...

I, cant find ani word to describe e feeling nw...

worst then being reject...

i hope tings will be the way it was before..nt totally... without me shooting my mouth.. or atleast near the same...

you've been a close, respected person tt i looked up to ever since i set foot in poly... never forget those days when u help me with my fndb queries.. even when u are tt freaking busy wif ur own.. u still help me.. my opsy assignment, letting me to ur hse and helping me.. all the assignments... you've been more then a friend... a freaking close 1... and i'm such a bastard....

i'm sorry... seriously sorry for all the tings tt i have done..

and for all the tings tt u hv done... a million thanks i send....

2008-07-11T05:18:00.001-07:00

updates...

Firstly and most importantly... dad is "fine"? cause the doctors dun dare to comments on the result.. then send to U.S de doct to see.. bt they also dun dare 100% sae its nt a tumor.. the most is 95% sure..so going to see a professor soon mum making the appointments.. hopefully nth is wrong..

life sucks.. esp sch life..it been mdbs for the whole week..its freaking stressful to do the FREAKING ERD la..-.-" well... i gt alot of tings to do man.. MDBS,OPSY,CMSK,WWNK,PS.. is like.. haix... all due soon.. and after tt... exams... life = no life... piece of shit.. crappy poly life... bt i sm wt love being in stress..!! hahahax... bt nt tis much=x i will o bersek... lol's..

nxt is yang lin got into the imagine cup 08 top 12 i believe... can u imagin it.. defeating other 50+ countries to get into top 12.. wth la.. super cool... as expected frm meh meh yeah?=D and finally after much pestering.. i am getting her a watch as she requested!!!.. no surprise=p hahax... bt need shop for it.. so its also stressful.. shopping = sucky, girls stuff= OMG... lol's... bt nvm la..willing to do so=)

went running wif zax and lee wei todae.. i freaking noob.. i need to get back my stamina man.. going running 1 3 4 5 7.. hopfully i can maintain.. lol's.. bt we agreed everi fridae we will meet and run... =D hahahx.. hiong hiong..

alot of tings is see hw important that issue or tt person is to u.. ppl changes.. class splitting apart slowing bt steadily... esp the girls... well..it kinda sad cause i reali cherish the yr 1 r/s we had wif one another.. bt gd ting is tt the guys are still freaking close.. lol's... bt seeing the girls nt joining us for lunch(its ok for me), then slowly it seemed like there is a gap between everibodi... and they will onli approach u to ask u qns on work or i approach them for sweets or wtever jux to speak to them... i dunno.. well.. i love c175... i could hv choosen to go out/hang around wif alot of other grps of frienz aka my SU frienz... my foc/fow freshie...my iitsc frienz.. bt i never went for their outing.. cause c175 is on top of all of them.. so nono.. =) bt still.. i wonder hw c175 will be nxt sem when i am sure some of us will nt be in the same class.. haix.. tis is life.. accept it sucker...

cell grp tml.. haven reali prepare for it.. bt will prepare for it soon.. haix.. and i am feeling like i am of no use... well to a certain extend.. i am jux like smting or sm1 jux to stand in till sm1 better pops up...or jux an acting 1 whom does the sai kang.. i am nt pleased wif sm tings.. bt shall nt talk abt it.. and tings are reali tiring... preparing a BS is nt simple when u are asked to make it more interactive by shi fu... haix.. cracking my brain and i enjoy being a cg member nt a cgl.. cause i do nt have to prepare aniting and learn=) seriously i find tt giving out w/h taking in is nt going to work... (its a thought) sourcing outwards for cg's to attend.. so anibodi wan intro mi to ur cg???=D bt i onli go for BS=D hahahax...

till then... beach ball babes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-07-05T06:34:00.001-07:00

got back results... i was nt hapi wif it.. bt atleast it was better then 1.2 de results.. seriously.. atleast i saw improvement... and i shall continue to improve...

2ndly was busy busy wif opsy.. although i was able to cough out my 1 k words.. bt i totally dunno wtf am i doing.. then see teacher.. he sae mine too chim.. and he also knw i dunno alot..so in the end i changed.. and dunno can make it nt.. hopefully can make it.. cause i dun wan to screw up my studies liaox.. fuck me...

nw.. reached home todae and mum told me tt someting wrong wif dad health report.. tommo our family doctor has an appointment wif him... mum sae cfm go see specialist.. i still gt alot to do for him.. i dun wan him to go so fast.. i dunno i alwax tink abt the worst situation.. my dad is a hyp B carrier.. His whole family are.. so it could be a minor situation nw but his kind of condition is like having a time bomb inside his body and whenever whereever it wans, it will just explode and my dad may jux go forever.. i hate tt thought... i am veri sure i am nt mature nt rdy nt prepared nt strong enough to meet or face tt situation.. AND I NEVER WAN TO FACE IT!.. its making me going banana.. i wan him to enjoy life.. i wan him to go on holidae.. while i pay for everytingj.. i wan him to stop working and do tings tt he finally wants...

lord.. into ur hands i commit everyting.. i am nobodi.. i can do nothing... God, grant me the tranquillity to accept the things that i cannot change and the courage to change the things that i can...thank you... thank you...

2008-06-18T07:22:00.000-07:00

erm.. i'm backed to blog.. lol's...

todae gd mood.???

ok.. my b/d wish list is!!!!
1- A new Bag

2- WALLET!!!

3-Lap top carrier

4-Watch

5-Shoes=D

hahax.. tt's all =D so timo u dun act blur.. i knw u saw my post.. so ZI DONG HOR!!!! either 1 of them =D tks... brother sia... =D

cause i realized hard to buy tings for guys.. so i let u all knw wt to get for me=D since those who knw tis blog are my closed 1.. so i dun need pai seh wif u all right!!!... wakakakax... =D tks.... lol's~!!!!!!

ok shall start wif last sundae..

went malaysia and was almost stuck there for a night..cause no transport back... and in e end.. we needed to spen abt 300 + Singapore money to get our ass home.??? haix... nvm.. lol's... is jux so not worth it la.. the system there simply cmi...

well... wtever...

then mondae was at home be gd boy...(cause no money to go out)

then tuesdae was nonsense.... went to tim hse early in the morning then cannot connect or rather cant play.. keep on lag out.. then need to go home.. waste 1 hr of my time... then it was so damm hot la.. wasted alot precious energy.. then played till 3am?? i bth... and i said i gave up.. cause i did hv a headach.. and also.. i tink... electricity bill veri chor.. play so long liaox.. then also tml i wan to do dsag..and dinner wif meh... so cannot waste energy... so in e end.. i gave up... and wtever... lol's... take number nia.. big deal ar..(actually...veri big) sianx...

then todae went sch to do dsag.. and finally i am left wif part 8... bt still gt 2 bonus marks question haven do.. kaox... nvm.. then Mr.Yap came and took lw away.. which is wth!.. and damm sianx la.. then in e end.. i was left cracking the stupid question 8 all alone.. while joel help the 3 fei wu's do their project... erm.. then lab closed at 6.. lucikly joel dave and wj pei me go opp buy sushi all tis.. to waste time... then pei them wait for bus..and dave guo ran brother.. pei mi waste time so he missed 3 bus 8 jux to pei me.. hahahax.. then i waited for the SHORTIE...

and we went to makan in tm.. luckily nt long john... cause hahahahax..... then we went to mos burger..the cashier and the auntie screwed up... wa biang... luckily i wif a girl ar.. ah bo i dun wan eat liaox... sure go other place eat... -.-" standard of service... 30/100 -.-" fail fail fail!!!!!!

then crapping all e way wif her... erm.. although is like wt.. 2hrs spent.. bt lol's.. great time spent in catching up wif her... jux feel so erm..(tis will make her feel zi high..-.-") myself.??? dun need to hide aniting when speaking to her..cause i knw she wont sae out de.. hahax.. and also the feeling like... talking to a jie jie ba.?? cause she is so damm matured in tinking.. so some wt look up to her ba.. haha? although she does nt look like it bt still ya... a jie jie to me ba... lol's.. jux like spending time wif her...(a lie) cause she keep on SUAN ME!!!!!!!... wth... seriously she suan me until damm ARGH!!!!!... lol's.. u gd.. nxt time u get it frm me...

well... guess tis MIGHT be the last time we dining 2gather.??? her poly life going to over rather soon.. and taking her tight and busy schedule for the next few months or rather for the year... so... well.. miss ya... and CONGRATS!!!!!! hahahax... since secret for the time being.. bt super duper CONGRATS to u=D damm hapi for u... hahahax... NU QIANG REN!!!!

so long then... tml going to sch for consulation and then for appointment check up.. and ta da.. sat is coming again... which is erm... lol... sch reopening... which is DAMM IT!!!!!!!!!!

2008-06-13T09:07:00.000-07:00

freaking pissed nw...

deb nw then let mi knw tt tommo she cannot go church and i am leading.. like wtf la...

i HATE IT LA>>!!!!!!!!!!!

KNN!!!!!!!!!!!!

DAMM DU LAN!!!!!

i am giving all i gt for this cell grp of mine.. and wtf does she does.??? she does nth!!!!... she is like.. argh~~!!!!!!!!

keep on going for campus crusade de ting.. and wt abt ur commitmend in tis church.??? in the main com>>?? in the cell grp??? in the band>???? damm it la... FCUK it.. i am damm pissed nw.. fcuk it...!!!!!

2008-06-11T03:41:00.000-07:00

hving thoughts running thru my small brain...

tinking abt sm tings.. and it came to my mind..

was it a right choice to be in tt position.. if i did nt accept it.. i will hv defitnely ran for main comm for iitsc.. seriously i will.. it has been the veri reason why i entered intsc in the first place...

ppl hv nt been committing totally.. i reali dun feel gd abt it.. i reali am nt hapi.. cause even when i am sick i make the damm effort to go for meeting.. and the reason why eric was nt there for meeting... he was tired.. WTF man.. i am trying my fcuking best nt to be angri or wt.. cause it is nt me who judge.. i am in no position to judge.. bt i simply feel veri in-justed.? i dunno wt word can describe my feeling or tinking.. crap... i haix.. sad sad sad... its like a basically 3 man show.. me xuan jacky running everiting.. esp xuan and jacky.. which i dun tink is the correct way.. damm it.. well FREAK IT..

stating my thoughts.. blahx...~

2008-06-10T05:59:00.000-07:00

wow... yst was outing wif "family" hahax... erm.. btw i was sicked like from sat.??

was nt reali feeling well when i went out.. jux knw it myself..bt nt sure abt it.. cause like nt veri serious.. and i knw the event later on is sotong in charge.. so well... jux go and help out??.. bt in e end.. i reali cannot ta han liaox.. was like ta haning.. still trying my best to joke and so on.. bt after i and jacky take down the cupboard.. i bth liaox.. whole body jelly liaox.. in e end.. no help at all... haix... ps sia.. lol's~

ok back to todae topic.. went out in the morning to meet sotong.. actually did nt reali knw she will turn up nt.. cause she never reply my msg.. then i still went to lavender and reached at 10.54 i guess.. lol's.. bt wow... once i stepped out of the mrt station.. i saw a same blur girl standing there bluring away.. lol's=p i was ofcourse damm happy to see her.. then she starting attp me.. lol's.. 2nd time.. i made her wait.. nt because i am late.. cause she is earlier, cause she dun wan me to wait... hahahaha!!!!

after tt it took less then 5 mins to complete my pass port collection then we headed to town.. and shopped for cheng de present.. after tt sianx liaox.. and i suggested KUNG FU PANDA!!!!.. since we are meeting the rest at onli 2.30.. hehe!! then went to lido.. and luckily... 12.30 de show.. haha.. then bought our tickets.. our popcorns.. and poof.. we are inside damm early la can..i tink 12.10.? we inside the theater le.. talking cock.. and b4 the show starts.. 3/4 of our pop corn gone.. lol's!!! then blah blah.. it was damm nice i swear... and she also said so... haix.. bth myself.. so zai=D

then we met up wif the rest.. then we go lunch and PARTY WORLD!!!!!!! sing until zao siar and so on bt hv lots of fun and celebrated cheng b/d.. after tt was dinner.. and then rushed to send her home.. cause her miao shou ren xing da jue ju -.-" and was crapping all the way wif dick also.. lols.. wonderful day...

todae de pulau ubin trip canceled.. and i am onli going to sae 1 ting here... if i dun organize.. i can hardly trust other ppl to do so.. esp OL's... maybe i expected too much... maybe i shld expect aniting at all.. maybe i am jux so selfish... well... lesson learned... experienced gained... mistake avoided the nxt time...

nxt outing will be fri.. party worlding again..and is organized by AH TOOT!!!!... =D hehex!!! so proud of her and birdie... hahahx... then ofcourse

MY MEH MEH DATING ME!!!!!!! wakakakakax~!!!!!

i am so damm looking forward for tt=p

2008-06-06T04:09:00.000-07:00

the tings and words that is being highlighted in red means SERIOUSLY SO ME~!!!...

i found tis at my cutie blog.. hahax.. so went to see my name.. wow.. hahax.. check it out=D

What Ng Jun Wei Means

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.

You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.

Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.

You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries.

You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.

You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.

And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.

You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts.(tis is so fake la -.-" )

You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it.

You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator!

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.

You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.

At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.

You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.

You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

wow~!.. exam over..finally.. bt i dont tink i did well.. haix.. i reali did more then last sem le..bt jux guess it is nt enough still.. haix.. lol's.. need to chiong chiong chiong chiong..~!

well.. exciting week coming up=D tml church...-.-" which is nt exciting.. doing sai kang... -.-" haix... dunno wanna go there or go for wickey outing... kaox.. alwax clash.. and alwax puts me in dilema...-.-" hate it.. FREAK...

then sundae is toot's b/d and going to celebrate garfew(my frien freshie) b/d at pasir ris=D hahahax.. then mondae k-boxing.. wif jie and jacky cfm.. and i arranged it like 2 weeks ago.? then sotong sae cfm wif mi again.. then last week sms tel her again.. she sae cfm wif mi again.. reali see no point in me organizing such stupid tings.. getting more and more tired of doing such tings.. if must see last mintue free then no point right.. i also dun see the need to set aside my time to pei them.. wtever i sae also no use.. they will alwax sae understand her situation and dun give her stress.. well.. i also hope tt i wont give myself stress or crack my brain then.. crappy shit..

reali damm disappointed.. so much so i want to go out wif her.. such tt i plan earlier and booked her in advance.. bt still... who cares.. she go then go.. dun go i tink i'll be happier in a way ba...

then tuesdae is pulau ubin.. june was supposed to organize.. bt she onli let mi knw the date.. then i asked her for the timing blah blah.. then i did disturb her.. sae wa u our ol then u like tt.. haix.. blah blah..then she sae why cant u organize... u also yr 2 liaox.. can be ol liaox.. dun keep calling me ur ol can nt... well... i was shocked and i thought she bad mood..so i said..talk to u another dae..then she replied.. i am saying the truth ma.. and i said ok and no reply le.. reali looking forward for the pulau ubin outing.. bt well.. haha.. frienz for life are simply fantasy.. no wonder i believed frienz can be for life.. lol's.. cause i gt good imgination=D

no mood for pulau ubin.. no mood for even genting..and i doubt i will be asking her along if i reali organzie..hahahaha... dun wan to pissed myself off even when going holidae!!! =D wakakax.. so in the end still is left wif class.. ol's are like.. haix... jux a ting of the past ba.? hor yanglin=x lol's..

2008-05-25T05:13:00.000-07:00

well... update on my week le ba.. after yang lin shoot me in her blog's tag board tt i never blog-.-"

nw show u hw no-life i am.. hahahax...

ok~..

1stly.. went to stay over at lulu hse last sundae.. last mintue they call mi and sae wan go watch movie nt.. then in e end.. cause cavin work till so late we pooled all e way.. then went to lu hse played majong and dota.. at ard 2.. we went to 85 market.. they sat 3 then end.. bt in e end.. when we reached there.(and i cabbed there wif some of the others) all closed.. wth la.. in e end.. also need to go back lu hse there eat.. by the time i eat finish.. 4 am... -.-" so went back.. MAJONG!!! and DOTA!!!.. lol's.. then i went home at 8.. and went out at 10 again...

to sentosa to meet freshies and zax.. and fun fun fun in sentosa.. almost no mood go.. CAUSE SUPER ALOT PPL!!!!!!!!!..freaking hell.. bt i enjoyed la.. cause got to knw siew ming..hahahax.. and i finally got to tan myself abit more.. hahaha... then they freak la... player poker outside vivo open aren there...=.=" and played money.. ji tao sia sui la.. hahahax.. then i keep on talk to siew ming onli.. hahahax..

then it was boring sch day boring boring boring boring till sat..=D meet sotong at 2 actually bt saw her at 1.45 like tt at pp liaox.. was shocked la.. ask her why.. she sae cuase she dun wan be late=x dunno lei.. bt damm sweet=p hehe!! then we went to eat swensense.. after which is church service and went to shen lao shi hse for dunno wt it is called.. bt well.. a well spent saturdae... although i did nt do ani-work like i planned to in the morning..cause i was alrdy excited in meeting sotong.. =p

some pics to share wif u all..=D

sm and leslie(my man u kaki!)

me and sm=D

garfield acting cute

gambling den(public)

round 2

after all the happening.. i reali find tt i am freaking fortuntate... to be in s'pore tt is it.. seeing those ppl in china suffering.. those ppl in myammar crying... i reali feel for them.. hw i wish i am there to help them... if there is an opportunity i will defitnely be there.. hw God express his wrath.. hw God shows us that his second coming is soon.. hw God tells us to repent.. hw God remind us to fear him... haix... blessed are those whom believed in him.. for they regin in heaven wif the Lord, in the tender loving arms of our heavenly Father.. for those whom dont.. god bless..

2008-05-17T21:45:00.000-07:00

glad tt i am able to go out wif mwc freshie tommo.. finally a time of my own... lol's~.. hopefully tml going to be damm fun.. hahahaha... although they nt my freshie.. bt gt to knw them thru zax.. and damm fun la wif them.. hahax.. bth them... life in sch is so so so much fun... unlike..... well.. hahahx....

tata..

2008-05-17T05:59:00.000-07:00

was very very pissed...

i admit i gt my own way of doing tings.. some maybe able to accept it... some cant...

bt in tis situation i reali am very stressful.. trying my freaking best liaox... i actually TOTALLY dun wan to take up tis role.. bt there is nobodi else le.. so i DIE DIE also must take right!?!? freak la~!.. its so much trouble and DONT I HAVE BETTER TINGS TO DO????. i dunno..it simply almost made me blow my top la!!!!.. i am serious i am damm pissed.. i tried to simpfied( duno hw spell) tings.. bt u made tings sound so complicated... i wan to high light some tings bt u divert their attention to another ting... which i am freaking nt happy...

i am a very da nan ren zu yi de ren... those whom reali knw mi shld knw tis... i hate ppl meddle wif the decisions i makes... esp when i knw wt i am doing and i am clear of the outcome... i hate it totally.. unless it sound better then my idea.. bt tis time round IT DoES NT!.. i am freaking disappointed in u... well i can 0nli tink of disappointed nw.. cant find other words gd enough to describe my feelings nw..

i wan to vent my anger out.. i want to jux shout out loud!! bt dun feel like bothering other ppl... so here i am... shouting out loud in my blog... freak la.. i reali dun feel like going on liaox.. DAM IT!... FREAK!!!...

2008-05-14T04:38:00.001-07:00

due to a stupid/ incompetence/ retarded/ freako/ moron teach of mine...

i tink my grp failed our 10% of assignment... knw why...

cause she told my grp... our first draft abt welfare of the people taking part in YOG will not work out.. sae she tink here and there she cant tink of aniting related...

ok... then we changed to logicstic...then she sae TOO HIGH TECH...

yst we consulted her and i must sae i was veri veri veri veri veri veri freaking pissed wif her as nw she sae welfare... ofcourse CAN!!!! ... well... i am seriously veri pissed..as she made my grp went thru alot of un-necessary nonsense... and i feel damm bad... cause if fail..means lw(aka my course de TOP- student) will also fail the 10% as it is grp work..

then it makes mi damm bad la.. tt is why i like grp wif him=x nt to leech him..bt atleast i dun wan be a burden to him or drag him down so i will worked harder then normal.. he is like my erm?? motivation.??? hahahax.. bt who cares.. we are all gd brothers man... seriously i thank god for a class like tt...

it suits me.. more importantly... bastard bt nice people all in it..

unlike my freshie class..i so damm disappointed in them... bad mouthing each other in front of me... and wt's more.. 1 of them bad mouth and act as if she is nt bad mouthing.." erm i dunno i shld tel u nt... if tel u.. i scared.. haix... nvm i tel u...=.=" is like.. i told her nvm dun tel mi... then she bad mouthed until... i dun like her=x cause who knws she wont bad mouth me behind others.. haix.. jux veri disappointed....

simply love my class... =)

C175 rocks=D

2008-05-10T06:54:00.000-07:00

well... long never blog... alot of happening tings.. i am simply lazy to blog.. no intention to blog too la... hahahax... well here are of some the tings tt i did and jux feel like blogging... hahax.. and SCH SUX... as usual... bt still... going to chiong for my yr 2... i dun care... i must score well~!!! yr 1 was a piece of shit for me... yr 2 i die die also must score WELL!!!

tis was week 0 night walk.. stationed at AS lvl 1 toilet.. tis is the peeps tat were in the station..=D

melinda and me 1st half make up.. lol's...

the girls toilet was like tt at first.. then i came and decorated till veri veri messy and alot of quite errie effect ba.? hahax~!! well.. we slamed the door till alot of tings spoiled..

played the children arcade wif sotong and wif onli 2 dollars token.. we won tis much amount of coupons la... power nt.. we played the spider tingy game.. children arcade is more fun then the b1 de arcade la.. lol's.. in e end..we changed for hello panda and wang wang..=D
it was my ah ma's b/d celebration last sunday... celebrated it in a restraunt... well although the steam boat super cmi... bt still see my ah so dam hapi.. i reali feel veri happy too.. she is the onli grandparent i hv left... so she is damm precious to me la... hahaha...

my generation taking pic wif grandma..

see my ah ma and my uncle.. my ah ma pretty right=D hahax..

b/d cake for grandma... durian cake some more.. damm ex la.. shared by me and my cousinz.. bth... going broke liaox=x....

2008-04-14T17:05:00.000-07:00

i am finally back huh.??.. lol's

1 holidae... so so much hv happened.. gd/bad does nt matter... i believe everyting happened for a reason..

nobodi knw exactly wt happen... and dun bother to ask... cause i wont sae...

short summary..

1st time i never work in a holidae... ok i did work as a mag giver.? those like flyer kind bt mine is door to door... for 3 days onli.. other then tt i did nt work at all totally...

1 was attending refreshes from SU de...

then i was attending microsoft organized workshops...

then i was rushing church stuffs.. which is nt fun at all....

then i had church camp...

then it was oltc camp...

then foc/fow camp...

then week 0 is up next...

sch starts nxt week which is so... omg...

well... i cnat sae i reali enjoyed tis holidae bt i am more relaxed then i am...

there are jux tis some tings tt i am rather nt hapi... cause like... nt hapi or wt.. sae to me la... i jux find it getting more and more tough... its getting more and more sianx and tiring... finding it a burden nw... rules rules rules... expectation expectation... it sucks and i hate it... wonder hw long i can last..

till then...

MiluBing (QF5)- Guo Huo

2008-03-12T16:00:00.001-07:00

my fav band and fav song...

2008-03-11T05:49:00.001-07:00

tml then i upload e pics of chalet ba... i am simply lazy to upload 1 by 1...
erm... lets start wif my past week....

ok.. whole week chalet focused.... frm mon - fri...

went shopping and planning and seeing tt everi tings goes right and entertaining and ofcourse.. taking care of e retarded timo when he is damm drunk.. and joel and teng when they vomitted... dots..... well... organizer is never an easy role.. bt well... i knw nt all enjoyed.. ps abt tt... i did organize and plan for activity bt all were late and nvm... nxt chalet will be better..=D u ppl organize... nt goin to be mi liaox.. i am going to be e 1 getting drunk le!!!... drunk by sparkling.??? hahax..i had 2 bottles of sparking on my own=x out of 5 i tink.. lol's.. there is nth they can do..cause i dun drink...lol's...

then i went out on fri night.. enjoyed myself.. well... tis is life.. face it sucker.... lol's....

then sat was e stressful 1... bs was difficult... band was ok la... bs was very difficult... and i dunno... when jordy was wif me... i feel more stress... =x and wif sqj wif us... EVEN MORE STRESS... wif shi fu expectation... i quite restricted.. bt well... shall learn e ropes...=D

then sundae went for xiao ban... got to knw 4 kids... bt i must admit i am rather biased..=x e pig de daughters i nt reali like=x hahaha!!!... they quite irritating... bt i super like tim and shit..i 4get her name... these 2 damm cute... and they super friendly to me.. so i super enthu towards them.. then went to it fair and in total.. 4 lappies were being bought...power nt.?? and all compaq=D same like me..hahahax... then went to play lan wif them... and well... day ends...

mondae and tuesdae... power... job search whole 2 days... mondae ji tao go hougang at 9.. and frm then on... went for interview then go changi airport walk in 1 by 1 of the store to see if they need staff... bt to no avil... so thought i dun wan work...then dave todae sae gt interview again... then morning after cheng come my hse settle some tings i go interview... then afternoon so mani calls... by e same few person asking mi alot of tings..luckily 1 of the recept voice damm sweet...=x lol's... so end of day.. tml dnno wth am i going to do... and on thrusdae..church camp..power... all e best ba...

so blog tml then...

2008-03-08T04:47:00.001-08:00

exams over....

chalet over... although there are several hip-cups in between.. bt i tink we handed it nt bad... ok ba... well.... its over... hope nxt chalet we are hving will be more fun..and dun be so big... so tt ppl will be more 2gather... doing things 2gather... which will be more fun...

my life is so so funi... there i am in church teaching ppl abt God... leading the cg and bs... trying my best to meditate on God's word and to teach e younger ones tt there is onli 1 God... and todae topic is jux worshipping God or idol... and i hv a tough time trying to explain the bs material.. well... bt thank god i managed to script thru it.. bt once i reach home... my mum goes abt talking abt telling e other person on the phone tt christian are dunno wt...goes out pulling ppl into church..and she critize christian ALOT!!!!!!... whole conversation she keep saying bad abt christian... and e other party is a christian... i reali feel bad.. for e other party... if she reali get psyco by my mum... she will hv ETERNAL LIFE... yar... IN HELL.... well tt is wt i believe....

FOR THOSE WHOM CANNOT AGREE WIF ME!!!!... I'M SORRY..DUN SAY IT IN FRONT OF ME AT E DAMM VERY LEAST...AH BO I TINK I WILL SIMPLY DUNNO DO WT TO U....DUN TEST MY PATIENT IN TIS AREA...

i seriously do nt like tis family of mine... hw i wish wish wish i can get out of tis family and live in a hostel or wt... serious... it cannot give me what i am seeking... maybe i am too greedy.? or asking too much.. but i tink.. well... i dunno......

lastly.. checked mateto...it died in a peaceful way... well... nt wt i hoped or expected.. but i knw tt was coming... and well... appericate wt took place... tks...

happiness is the language of love....

我愛黑澀會 01/22/07 - 曹格 KTV Show

2008-02-20T23:16:00.001-08:00

i love songs...

2008-02-02T19:17:00.000-08:00

Firstly~!!!!

FOO YOO~!!!... cds is overs=D left wif presentations which is after new year... hopefully i did well for my papers..=x cause i reali like the subject.. its intersting but i hate the studying..damm tough... and taking both at the same time is no joke~!!!... i swear... lecture is continous.. socio then leadership.. then tut is one after another 2 without break for both~!!!!... -.-"

hehe.. and yst was e 1st time the new CG came 2gather=D quite happy la..bt yst was deb leading.. as i was rushing and preparing for my 2 exam papers.. bt in e end.. erm...=x ok can see she was nervous and yar ofcoruse la..if mi i tink i will also be nervous.. and for the nxt few bs i will be e 1 leading liaox=x gt kick de lor... i tink 4 bs straight is ME~!.. bt thank god la.. beside the 1st one the rest i am in holidae.. so gt time prepare=D hehex...=p and ofcourse tks meh meh=D helping mi out too=p hehe~!!!

finding i am being restricted there is SCC.. by bringing some "life" to the grp is it wrong.??? why must you use tt kind of eye sight to look at mi as if i did someting super wrong.. we are youths.. shld we be e most hyper most "ENERGY" most "WOW" factor de grp.??? bt why it seemed like even chang le(The old ppl de CG) is more hype then us.??~?~? why hv tt kind of mindset tt simply irritates me.. i dun dare say to anibodi in SCC.. tel them gt use.??.. they will simply say me back onli... and lucky this blog none of them knw so i can atleast blog them out... i knw leaving for aonther church may nt help the situation..even if it does.. other may pop out... so wt's e point.. tt is e onli reason i am giving myself for the past yr to make mi stay in SCC.. bt nw more burden..more responsibilty.. anoint me plx oh Lord...

well i am a person whom dun like to say tings out..so i write them out... if u dun wan to read wt i feel or u dun respect mi jux get e F out of my blog.. u are totally nt welcome... tks..

2008-01-26T20:03:00.000-08:00

Wow...

been busy busy busy busy...

tt is why i never blogged.. kaox..so damm tired can..finally can hv a breather..although still gt leadership and sociology de project haven gao dim...

erm.. it has been chaotic for me.. been super busy wif sch work..and church work... tt i tink i missed out someting..or neglected someting/somebodi.. well.. sori abt it..

then e NXT BIG ting of my class is our class chalet=D fooyoo.. i have been tinking abt it since like wt..sem 1??..hahahx..happening lor..finally wif dave e organizer and mi helping him we are going to make IT happen.=x sound so iit..-.-" hahax..influenced... hahahax... hopefully everibodi enthu then can liaox..hahax..=p

church is veri stressful... 08 is like a whole new break thru for mi la..=x totally stepping out of my comfort zone and stepping into service department, drummer and a CG leader.. i reali dunno i am up to it or nt.. it is e younger 1 spiritual life and growth i am talking abt here.. u wan me be a brother to be there for them to help them and give them advice no prob..bt being a CGL is a totally new ting la can..-.-" seriously i am feeling VERY STRESS abt it nw.. i wanted to be in the outreach department.. bt as there is nobodi to fill in the service department they asked mi to be in e service dept.. whole new area.. and trying veri hard to cope.. and nw CGL... omg... lord i reali dunno wt to do ar...=x

stressed stressed stressed... then still gt the stupid pHantOs outing tingy.. gt chalet bt i simply dun wan to go la.. i felt reali left out... reali no motivation or no reason to go.. they all in their own small grp.. all biz ppl...-.-" then no point la.. i dun tink i am going for the chalet let alone going for FOC FOW... bt i reali wanna go for FOC FOW.. bt my grp..-.-" all like tt..no mood to go la.. kaox... then i gt children camp frm 12-15.. then stupid OTC starts on the 11th.. is like wth la..all my timing clashes... kns la... nt funi lor.. -.-" and i wanna work..then after OTC is FOC FOW..then after FOC FOW is week 0... omg..my holidae is like no holidae again..-.-" so lifeless sia my life... omg...

2008-01-12T23:12:00.000-08:00

millions and tons of tings i wan to talk to u... bt no chance...

no chance == no future

no future != so near yet so far

so near yet so far == i miss you

i miss you != i love u

i love u == i'll wait for u

i reali dunon wt to do.. i hv been tinking alot.. and e more i tink..e more confirmed i am..

i am nt e 1 for u... == i give up.....

tkae care......

2008-01-05T15:24:00.000-08:00

wt did i do to deserve such a family...

family is nth bt a piece of shit...

y do i alwax hv to go thru such situations...

why others de family is so much better of then mine..

atleast their parents cared..

their felt siblings love....

their know their belonged...

MINE... ????? _l_
i hate being made used of.. i reali hate it... the feeling is simply jux nt right anymore...

2008-01-04T06:05:00.000-08:00

28.12.07

30.12.07

Presenting Mr Waiter Of the Yr.. and His New Yr Night in Church..

had been tinking thru alot..and i am still tinking.. well..sch work had been taking its toll on me.. wonderful... stressed like omg..and there on the other hand..i do not knw wt to do... how come illusions seemed so real in life... i cant tel if u are real or fake.. hope tt i will be enlighted and knw wt to do..

new yr... new begining.. i will nt hold on or clinge on onto the past as it is called past for a reason.. i hv decided i wan to be with you..every single day every single minute and second of my life. as only You will be there for me when i need someone to be there. you sends angels to help me along the way but also allowed devils to trip me and block me along the way, so i can grow. thank you. love you and praises for you~! let me serve you whole heartly this year. for the youth for you.

sometings cant be forced..let nature take its way....

2007-12-29T17:59:00.000-08:00

i hv no mood to blog..

first ting..she is back.. finally... which is erm.. a veri gd ting.. then met up for awhile and i have my own appointment..she has her own..

then nxt dae went to job interview with her.. the place is reali wu lu 1 la.. -.-" in e end...the person employed me (but i rejected...cause gt sch) and never cal her.. told u liaox..cause i more handsome..=x after which..lunch and then wen to lido..before going to cini..=.=" and her frienz are so late... "u ar..alwax give in de...haix..." then after she met up wif her frien i chiong to sentosa.. cause was scolded by them la...=.=" june called so mani times~!!!!!...-.-" omg..i tel u..it sux man.. then when reach sentosa...i SMART..huri go buy drinks for them... to reduce e more scolding tt is to come... then they are so far away la.. KAOX!!!.. need to walk wlk walk walk!!!.. when reached then yar..blah blah blah... bt they see water..WA!!! u so gd ar...knw we thristy..wa finally water..then i knw..phew..ok storm over=x typical them... then wanted to sun tan... bt in e end..so mani clouds.. i onli started sun tanning awhile onli.. then all e clouds..then we played..crapped and gift exchange..=D before heading to habourt front center for subway then i went to meet her for awhile..

then hurried home to changed and take my clothes before meeting renda and co. wth la..so long never see them bt all never change..thought we will like omg..drifted but..hahax..true bros never part man.. like 3 months then meet 1 time we crapped jux e way we were in sec sch..hahax.. then it was jh b/d..i forgotten... i seldom remember b/d cause i sux in it.. then went to lulu hse and 1st ting..dota...i and jh simply own lulu la..-.-" then dog came and we watched my wife is a gangster 3..=x then went out for supper.. i did nt eat..i onli drank..cause stomach nt reali gd..after effects were still there..then cavin joined us ard 4.. we went back and started watching another show dunno wt is tt..bt they are also playing games and drinking white wine at e same time... while i rush my report... until 5 plus then i finished and we played a game..dunno wt is tt called bt is sabo 1..and as u knw my pattern..sa bo..hahax.. 1st time i sa bo until myself..damm it.. then last few round they sae play wif wine... bt as i dun drink they sae for jw he drink 10 glass of water=.=" bt atleast they knw i wont drink and wont ask mi to drink..true bros.. 3 cheers.. then i left his hse at 6.45 to go home..

then when reached bugis.. it was 8.20.. i was supposed to meet them 8.15 then i did call lw and sae go ahead w/h me..as i am in e super slpy and tired and stomach pain like shit mode.. bt they wait for mi sia..dave wy and lw waited..brother jiu shi brother.. then we went to meet e rst of e ppl whom took part in flag day.. blah blah blah..lots happen during flag day..bt dun wan to talk abt it..then i went to do research in sim lim then went home..and k.o.ed till sundae and i shall continue to project like mad for e whole day skipping e outing tt is happening nw... well..so loong..

told her u have made it clear to me..tt i hv no chance..ask mi dun even has a glimpse of hope for us being 2gather.. tt i ask u cal mi kor?..WHEN!!!.. tt i shld jux give up and remain as frienz.. tt is wt she told mi..and tt is wt u TOLD her...

2007-12-24T17:19:00.001-08:00

firstly was the first task as service dept head...

nt easy de lor..need to confirm band members..if they serving nt..i am fine wif it..then come e part i need to ask felicia abt it..=.=" irritating part i must sae.. i reali dun wan to talk to her la..kaox.. i wanted to ask jacky or san jie to help 1..but.. i tink tink... my job lei.. there was tis once when i wanted to approached her..bt still unable to do it...=.=" is like jux asking"u still serving in band nxt yr?.or are u tied down by job?" bt i simply cant do it la.. then i asked e rest le.. until there was tis chance. she was wif ping jie and was like standing at e piano there.. then i wa biang.. gather all e guts tt i have in me and chiong ar..starting i talked to ping jie first..then i simply divert e question to her... wa..DAMM WERID LA!.. then she never heard it properly~!.. then i need to repeat..and da jie was there disturbing.. saying wat..trick question trick question..dun ans..=.=" i was tinking..kaox huri let mi get done and over wif it la~! then she said no..then i ok.and i scroff away..hahax.. huri go away.. lol's~!

then nxt day i was wif jacky san jie and tryphena.. we were eating, talking la.. then i brought up tis topic..cause all 4 of us in main comm then i was telling them la..i wanted to ask them help mi ask felicia de.. then i realized.. san jie and jacky knew wt i wanted to do, bt did nt offered to help.. and they are hapi tt i take e first step=x gong shi fen ming=x hahax!! and jie was damm proud of mi..lol's.. bt if there is any chance to intereact wif felicia..tks but no tks...hahax~~! behind gt story story de..i wont say bt there is a reason why i avoids her=x lol's~! going out wif them is jux as fun as ever la.. bus rides rocks.. i simply love bus rides.. super time to bond and slp 2gather..hahax.. bt tis time we were all busy catching up and keep talking talking talking all e way till i send tryphena home before meeting jacky and had our intital D bus..tt guy drive damm fast can!..=.=" bt he is pro..i LIKE..then slept in bus back to tamp.. lol's..

secondly, i planned everiting le.. u told mi 29-31 aniday also can.. u asked mi go plan..i plan le..and i tel u 30th..i even plan to pang ser my friends to celebrate his b/d and pei u go out..nw u tel mi sae sundae cannot..must 2nd..=.=" i arranged and made time for u..bt u simply tel mi cant..never see u for so long wanna kill mi le..nw still... PROJECT PROJECT PROJECT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MUG MUG MUG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-12-19T18:36:00.000-08:00

Otc ended...

Phantos was my grp.. well..i must sae.. i dun like some of e grp mates starting..1st dae i totally felt damm sianx la can...1stly..no msg frm her..which is..OMG>.<" then 2ndly in my grp onli gt 2 of my cca mates..2 za bors which is nt my yr de..both yr 2..and i never talk to them de.. which is ..WA KAOX~!.. damm bored can..i 1st dae head supe pain..and damm boring..while e rest of the grp ppl gt their own clicks as ALOT OF BIZ STUDENT GET IN CAN!!!!!!!!!!!...(bt also gd..gt alot girl to see =x ) then 1st dae was boring..

2nd dae..morning like damm sianx la..everibodi all so dead.. then crap la can.. we are GL's lor..then all act like freshies..damm it la..then e "lao jiaos" some i respect them..cause they reali stand up and lead..and they lead by EXAMPLE..which is e onli way for mi to gain my respect.. they reali rocks.. no doubt.. bt some..act 1 fark tup.. open mouth talk,give negative feed backs..bt when come to grp dicussion or wt..they go talk wif other frien and joke ard..nt serious at all...=.=" to hell wif them.. and some.. go there little involvement..is like jux go for e camp to hv fun..yar we are supposed to hv fun bt most importantly be a leader... nt a blind follower..retard~!. well...2nd dae we gt F by our FA..bt i tink we deserve it.. a few of us tried our best in leading e cheer..although i was nt e 1 standing in front to lead..bt e few of us came out wif e cheers so i was standing at e back shouting and cheering..and teaching.. then was night walk.. i was expecting all e scary scary stuff... in e end..wth.. we kanna shi han our grp..and when i see shi han she CMI LA!~!.. be the fallen angel until so cmi..=.=" she totally spoilt the whole atmostphere.. i was laughing like shit la..and she also laughing la can..=.=" hahahx.. she am chioing..then i bth..keep on laugh.. i tink later see her i going to get scolded liaox..hahax..bt its BORING AND A FAILURE FOR NIGHTWALK~!!!!well...it jux ended e 2nd dae wif scolding frm FA...

3rd dae.. 1st ting..was e result.. we were e 4th place la can..we frm 2nd place drop to 4th..u knw hw sad nt..there's 5 grp btw... then water games..got super wet... sock smell and shoe smell like shit..and we gt a compulsory station..which is caleb's..and damm him la..onli his station play flour..and we kanna..=.=" bt fun la..haha.. finish le we went to lunch..then was hungry... all was like so disorganized can.. stupid..bt we managed to come 2gather as a team and continue.. and hungry for e last 15 min..we all jumped into e fountain..and A IDIOT CAME JUMPING ON MY BACK...PCB~!!!..tis 1 i super DU LAN..and i was hanging my hp on my lanyard la..he come down..push mi down..my phone totally get into e water la~!!!.. anD ITs SPOILT LA!!!!!...DAMM DU LAN!~~!!~!!!!... i swear i am damm pissed... and nw..i no hp... fark... and no money buy my dream phone yet.. i onli will get e phone..=x bt no MONEY!!!..need to wait till ard march..holidae go work..and get my ang baos then i can buy my DREAM PHONE!~!.. haix..i am damm sad..

then were e release of e results..e FINAL results..my whole grp was jux hoping dun get last can le.. then we were nt e last.. cause they announce e result by one by one raising e flags.. then 5th nt us..4th..we thought is us..bt also nt us..then 3rd we thought is us liaox la..bt was venos..which is a team we thought damm zai 1.. sure win..bt NOT... then 2nd and 1st..then they sae will jux raise e flag of e 1st team..e winning empire.. then we were like..omg omg.. we are in 1st or 2nd.. we were tinking..2nd will do... then our flags was being raised la can~!!!!.. OMG!!!.. we are e winning empire lor.. wa biang.. cant imagine it la..=.=" never hv it crossed our minds tt we will be e first..hahax..i tel u.. wow..hahahahahahahaha... then we celebrated and sing temasek mi temasek you...blah blah..i find tis camp better..as in..although we all like gt P.K wif each other empire wif cheers..we help each other out 2..as in e hungry..e tings need to do wif another empire..we help each other and we all after all e results and games we will temasek mi temasek u.. to tel each other tt all belongs to TP..so no diff..hahax..damm fun.. then was mass dance.. chicky dance and HOME...

sometimes i reali dunno wt to sms u... 4 days never hear frm u..till todae..last 4 days reali dunno wt to sms u.. nvm.. gt alot of tings to sae bt... lol's.. tc for ur hk trip tommo... hope to see u soon..

super miss you!!!..

2007-12-16T06:44:00.000-08:00

Firstly...

tml otc camp liaox.. tt time being elected super hapi...cause out of abt 1k ppl whom went for e interview.. onli abt 200 ppl gt in to e camp... wow~!.. means i'm e elite..haha.. no la..maybe i bull shit skills gd lor.. they believe a slacker like mi=x haha.. then... i'm sick... coughing and flu.. wonderful combi.. tt time i go for foc during week O onli cough..then shout unitl come back..NO VOICE.. i wont forget tt period of time.. 1st time in my life i no voice.. talk to ppl need to use sign language de..power hor.. tis time round..i tink my voice also GG liaox.. haix..sianx... well..

secondly..

i going nuts le la..hv been smsing her e pass few days.. telling her wt's happening, wt i doing blah blah..then i scared she sianx.. so did nt msg tt much le..=x cause i also tel her nt to reply my sms..veri ex.. bt a few times she did and i was wow.. touched=x reali.. super touched and happy jux 1 sms iand t can make my day..=D so whenever my hp rings..wa i damm excited..see nt her name i damm sianx..=x lol's.. tt explains why my reply is so sianx 1..hahax.. she coming back on 19..then fly again on 21st.. wanted to meet her on e 20th..bt shld let her rest b4 she go for her hk trip..dun wan her wear out her body..so yup..nt going to ask her out yet.. smsing her w/h ani reply sometimes reali jux make mi out of topic to talk=x i scared i sianx her abt my sms.. bt i still wanna sms her..let her knw i care=x then nxt 3 daes camp.. omg.. i tink gt alot to sms le ba=p haha..

for e nxt 3 days..is there is nth important refrain frm smsing mi.. my batt is going to ta han for 3 days..and i need to sms her..so haha.. nth dun sms mi or cal mi hor..lol's... ok i go eat medicine then i go dota wif lw they all liaox..haha..

till then..

Brainy miss pinky~!!!!

2007-12-12T02:48:00.000-08:00

Term test week...

summarized..i am screwed..crap.. i hv to pull up my socks like shit liaox.. first 2 paper SURE fail.. mood was damm bad esp for c-math..i reali did studied.. bt still i screw up everiting..damm it... well.. jux crap la... going to mug mug mug for my other tests...

mood was sucky..then went to meet wif pinky..and wonderful sia..she 1st time late...=.=" lol's.. nvm.. when she come..can see she super rushed la..wanted to di siao her 1..bt ai ya..see she rush unitl like tt then nvm le lor.. then she thought her ez-link expired liaox..bt hahahahaha... she 4get top up nia.. gong gong 1 sia she..lol's.. bt cute~!.. =x BUT... SHE FORGET TO BRING CAMERA!!!...wa biang.. then ofcourse chut pattern liaox..haha!!.. then we went to walk walk and shop shop..her phone still nt out sia.. lol's.. then we go play e free throw ting again..both of our score onli 163 onli.. a guy after us came..and straight score 900 plus..=.=" then we go play other game..cant see liaox..when we walk back there.. another guy use 2 hand play de..both hand also can throw e ball..1567 is his score.=.=" insane de lor these ppl.. then we go makan and joked and crap all e way la..hahax..took pics of her being super UNGLAM!!!..bt nt going to post it la..i gd guy lai de..=D hehex i shall laugh at it alone..

wa then e power part come..remember when u go swensen to dine.. order ur desert b4 ur main course..=.=" know why..cause we ordered our desert and hor.. our ice cream cone and banana chocolate coated is SO DAMM HARD LA..i take mine and knock e plate.. guess wt..normal ice cream will jux "PIAK" on e plate right..mine is"KONG" wa kaox..is like eat stone la can..bt once e outer layer got eaten.wa seh.. e mango ice cream.. WOW!!..then her choco coated banana lol's.. also hard.. we 2 eat until veri xing ku sia..=x haha.. then we continue to shop then go home via mrt.. i wanted bus de=x bt she dun wan.. i lazy to stand.. bt still stand..=.="

her crayfish spag...

my calmari rings=D and our stone like ice cream..cause too full she dun wan EARTHQUAKE~!!!=x

send her home.. well.. actually i got a better ans then expected =x hahaha.. haix.. u gone for 2 weeks damm sianx sia..=( todae 1st dae siant totally liaox.. haix.. 2 weeks lep=( bt she gt reply my msg tel mi she there liaox..hahax~!!..sweet right.. i knw.. i knw..=D 2 weeks huri past ar.. CANT TA HAN!!!... all e best for ur trip~!.. lets go out and complete all our outing and dates~!!!. ARGH~!!!...

misses.....

2007-12-08T05:37:00.000-08:00

my new digital camera..=D nice right...hahax.. its orange.. i find it simply jux simple and nice.. mostly cause of e colour la..and tks my pig and dog frien to pei mi go and buy my camera..hahax..p.s wasted so much of ur time waiting for bus,warranty tingy.etc.. hahax..tks man!!!.. Love yeah ppl..hahax!!!..

erm..volcano ramen simply makes my stomach pain.. bt worth it la..so nice..haha.. shld hv ate crayfish ramen.. =x nvm nxt time i shall hv tat.. hehex!!.. socio test was crap la.. i dunno wt the hack they asking.. so as usual.. my wonderfully power BULL SHIT SKILL comes into play.. i simply bull shit my way thru e test and hopefully can get a reasonable grade for tt piece of junk test.. hahax.. then went out wif pinky... ate aijisan.. then we went to buy warmer/heater for her oversea trip.. lol's.. she ji tao go for so long la can.. =.=" 12-27 wif a day back in s'pore b4 departing for e nxt trip.. power hor..wa biang..super enjoy life.. lol's... then we went home.. b4 going for e stupid iitsc meeting..kns.. super cork la can.. wasted so much of my time and money need to pay for sub comm shirt..-.-" wonderful.. i'm broke BROKE BROKE AND BROKE!!!!!!!! bth.. need to save liaox..

then todae in church..wonderful.. 10 all e way till 1.30 MEETING...omg.. todae touched alot of stuff la can.. SUPER ALOT... alot of details.. and procedure need to follow.. wa sianx.. such a lazy and slacker like mi.. do all tis tings.. WA BIANG!!!... still.. hv to do.. sianx.. then went to hv lunch wif e rest... then go back to church again for band pract..b4 leaving home while they go for cell grp and 1 of e member hse to watch movie"Against The Giant".. wtever.. need to study so cant watch tt..damm it.. and until jux nw had been mugging...

tml going to dave hse to mug wif e rest of them again.. wa biang.. nxt week term test..wish mi luck...

and to u.. congrats for getting ur DIPLO!!... Wow.. ER HU MASTER!!!!!!!!!!!...hahax.. power sia..=x congrats congrats..=p cant wait for tuesdae..=x hahahx...

2007-12-05T21:58:00.000-08:00

wonderful day i got..early morning go sch.. teacher teach and still understand..go until lect..she talk wt i totally dun understand..then i tel jess tml i going to her church..she ji tao ignore mi..wonderful... after sch.. intial plan was to go home and mug first b4 going out later.. bt ai ya.. since my class todae like veri on pei them go eat.. bt who knws.. they were saying eat wt eat wt then suddenly jm and gang ji tao pang ser sae go opp eat...(as usual la nw adaes...) then when e guys still discussing..jess ji tao attitude problem.. "i dunno wt u guys tink bt we are going first" then she i and tim tel her go lor go lor..then she ji tao walk down.. super pattern..nvm..in e end i still follow them.. then was waiting for 69(which was damm long) then lw was saying wa liaox so long cause he need to rush to suntec for his damm cisco ting.. then told him wt here onli gt 69 to inter..u shld go opp to take..then he sae follow e rest wt.. nvm

then 69 came..boarded e bus.. lw and grace sat downstairs..so i cal tim and dave go up..bt they also sit downstairs..so i go up pei lw.. then go up liaox..sat beside winnie.. then was casually talking.. wa lao..why u all take 69 veri long sia.. whose smart idea to take 69.. jess look at mi ji tao tel mi... "nobodi ask u to follow right".. ok tt's done it..tmd..i was super pissed..if she guy i tink i may whack her up liaox.. i reali reali reali veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri pissed..i walked down and find dave and co. once alighted frm bus i ji tao go home... to hell to pei them eat.. i swear she got on my nerves enough times and tt's done it.. since she love to use such tone to talk.. she's screwed..i swear i am going to get even wif her.. or worst..damm it.. i tis few weeks never go ji siao her or wt liaox she ji tao give mi attp.. super PISSED... i'm getting to get sick and tired of organizing class ting alreadi..last time everibodi hapi dun mind..nw ppl like to go in their own grps go ahead.. F those whom wan to complain to mi why no class outing..for 1 whole damm yr(soon) i hv been doing all e shit..enough is enough.. GAME OVER....

well..then no lunch for mi..no sakae buffet either.. eating bread nw..and then going to mug my socio test tml... sianx.. hope i can bull shit pass my socio..hahax!!!.. tml gt meeting..omg.. at 7 sch.. compulsory some more..wth..=.=" then sat!!..10 meeting in church...omg.. so mani tings sia.. bt i tink i nt going for their movie catching activity..going home to mug mug..

tml going out after sch..yup..hopefully everiting turns out right..=D

misses....

2007-12-05T02:59:00.000-08:00

hw much gayer can i get in tis spects... i timo and dave all took a pic wif e spects..and i look e gayest can...=x tis few days veri happening... wow.. roller coaster ride! ups and downs.. haix..hope everiting can stabilizes soon..

2007-12-03T06:03:00.000-08:00

my class,

me acting cute

me being tao pok..

my green drum sticks..hollow de..

new drums sticks..

dave's slipper snapped..

maddness.. slping and gaying on e floor

sch had been veri stress todae..and veri veri veri veri boring..

i've change...i've change..

2007-11-30T06:55:00.000-08:00

WOw...

todae kanan scolded by teacher in e morning..is like...nt my fault k... i rushed e project then u sae dun wan to take...my fault ar..kaox..bt all tis are jux stupid event of e dae..

i met up wif pinky todae..lol's.. went to watch hit man..then somebodi keep on tel mi is 3.15 show.. bt i checked wif my hp and at home i checked internet..4.15..she keep sae 3.15..nvm.. then she dun wan take train to pasir ris first then go down bugis..ai yo..she scared i bluff her..then miss e time slot..hahax..am i such a person nt=x then when reached there..hahax..is 4.15 and she lost..so we bought e tickets and we go and play ARCADE...lol's.. her shooting nt bad lor. she win mi sia e free throw machine..bt her number of ballz doubles mine..so is like..erm..hahax... UNFAIR... bt nvm..haha.. then we went to play car racing then e time crisis u cal it?..x= before heading off to see some stuff then watch HIT MAN... erm.. e show is nice..bt maybe shld be rated M18? or izit s'pore government starting to be "OPEN" cause some of e scene is rather sensored bt they played it..so i was like..WTH...NC16 show lep..such scene..i was shocked la..=,=" then we went to makan b4 we started our rushing for train right b4 it closes its door campagin..=.=" tis campaign is when e mrt goes..TU TU TU TU TU..then e door close right.. during e TU.. we run in..=.=" confirm alot of ppl there see us like tt sure laugh their ass off de..=x lols..nxt time come again la.. we play more extreme de.. we stand at control station then rush down..see can make it nt..hahax..

jux enjoyed myself...teacher scolding stress wif sch work,church work all gone..hahax..and i reali reali am hapi when i am wif u..lol's.. and yar.. lets go K-boxing~!!!.. i sing e glass will break 1 hor..so becareful ar=x later u regret=x hahaha... i wan outing.. everidae..! wif u..lol's... nxt time when u see e fei wu's u will knw why we cal them fei wu liaox..hahaha..

ta ta..so long.. la la la...=D damm hapi todae
=p

2007-11-29T04:20:00.000-08:00

Yst was my happiest dae~!!..

firstly i finally smsed her and started talking to her!!..=D some time ago...then its like..omg..dream come true when we went out 2gather yst...omg~!!..bth myself... bt i reali enjoyed myself to e max yst la..although is e mere 5 or 6 hrs spent in total.. i tel u..i love spending everi single second wif u...laughing..joking..disturbing..and remember tt guy when we boarding bus 3..HE is nt my brother=.=" lol's..tks for everiting..=D

then todae never see u..i veri sianx..veri bored..i dunno..bt when u msg mi tt time i reali wanted to jux rush down.. haix... sori i was nt there... and i hope u believe mi.. i am different frm e past le... all ppl make mistakes..and i made a big 1..was to lie to them saying tt i gt a gf in e past.. cause i wanted face.. nw i regret.. everibodi had a past..i had a veri shameful 1.. ppl talk abt their results..wt they achieved..i kept quiet..jux praying tt they will nt ask mi abt mine.. i am trying to put all those behind mi..hope u can believe mi.. i am serious abt u.. nt a child game.. nt a moment of impulse..bt..a decision i wont regret for life.. i will be able to boast abt e time i knew u.. and nt lowering my head and pray...

i dunno wt i can do to make u believe mi bt..i believe..let action speak louder then words..judge mi on ur own..and by wt other ppl said.. hope tml i can see u..and e day after tommo and for everi single dae..i'll be able to see u...i pray for tt dae to come... i dun care hw other ppl see mi after tis post..they can dun understand..can laugh at mi..bt..u matter more to me then that..your trust..i need it...

as long as u are hapi..i'm fine wif aniting..

brain miss pinky...

2007-11-24T19:11:00.000-08:00

WOW~!....

i am lacking behind in studies like shit..omg..so todae sundae..turned down all appointments to study at home...SO GUAI RIGHT...bth myself..ok back to topic..lols..

22.11.07

was my sotong b/d..hehex!!..so whole dae in sch my heart was areadi wif her liaox..cant wait to go out wif her and celebrate her b/d wif her..so..i skipped 2 lect...c-math and socio.. if i am going for both e lect my sch end at 7 la..retard right.. ofcourse run away lor..=p then met her and we went walk then went to eat yuki yaki..cause she sae wan eat steamboat.. e pics.are wif her..so wait till i take frm her then see i wan to post or nt ba..hahaha....
then after dinner went to suntec to shop for her shoe then send her home...bus ride nt fun lor..so mani ppl..wa biang..=.=" irritating..lol's... then changed bus and foo..home i go..hope u enjoyed ur b/d sotong=D

24.11.07

well..tis is e dae when i offically step into main com.. bt b4 all e serious matter..met sotong 8.45 for breakfast..however..when i reaching her hse liaox at 8.30 tt SOTONG JUX WAKE UP!!!...wa biang..then wait wait... then she pop up...then wanted to scold her bt nvm la..lol's=x then we went to meet jacky and xuan for our breakfast... jacky was even later la... and nxt week jacky programm i'm taking over cause he will be on guard duty...=.=" i dunno hw to make kite la can..=.=" then wan mi take over..omg.. nvm...

then went for meeting at 10.15.. then ended up i am put into service/worship department... frankly i wanted outreach ( which i serve as in sub-comm la) bt...wt i feel beside my shi fu...i am reali e best candidate for outreach...however cause tis particular person..whom sux in everiting is also in outreach subcomm as in in e past so if they are going to put him elsewhere he will surely screw up...so they hope by putting him in a more familiar enviornment and work load he will cope wif it better...well...we shall see... bt i veri sad la..i nt in outreach..haix.. bt wtever god place mi at, i shall jux give it my all.=D and nxt week need hand in proposal liaox...OMG!!!.. damm fast la..bt well...hahaha....

then went for lunch wif sotong and we wore our couple attire todae for service..hahax...even jacky and xuan never wear we both wear..we pak kat alreadi..hahax.... and i hv swollen eye..so i wore my bro's sun glasses out..=,=" and they all laugh at mi la..wa biang..bth..lol's... then went home tt time sotong going to her grandma hse so we took e same bus back and as usual took pics..hahax..

haix..ok i shall go mug mug mug...

to u...hope u can cool down and tink it thru...dun force urself so much...concentrate on ur studies.. and if need ani help can find mi...no prob=D

2007-11-23T02:59:00.000-08:00

Ok..i knw my blog rotting..so huri post..and jux to summarize..exciting month of nov i hv..and veri XIONG"fierce" ... D-cup then tp-rawks and nxt up is GL..and hopefully can perform and get into otc..=p i knw alot ppl apply bt did nt get in..hahax..and i gt in lor..so hapi..

to cut my talking short..i posted alot of pics..so..let e pics do e talking.. and yar..i am sick!!!..damm it...

after so long...i finally see her again in tp-rawk...stirred feeling.. mixed emotion.. hope i finally gt e courage to talk to her..atleast jux a hi..

Ys b/d celebration

2007-11-13T08:36:00.000-08:00

WELL DONE NG JUN WEI.... its 12.36 nw..and i jux reached home... credit goes to D-Cup... damm tired nw..and i hv to rush my damm C-math..cause tml till fri i am on LOA...for TP-RAWKS... and i am damm shag..meaning... i am going to skip so mani damm bloody important lect,lab,tut... which means..GG to my gpa..=.=" i am going to regret it so so much for choosing to go for TP-RAWKS..and i did nt choose it ok..i was being assigned...and i will never sign up for SU event w/h tinking 10 times thru my damm brain..ok...

tml 7.45 report to SU.... and will end ard...8?...__ damm busy...and i hv so mani ting need to rush...darn!~~!...pray hard tt i do nt fall sick nw..cause head damm pain RIGHT NW... so is my stomach...argh!!!...well...all e best ng jun wei....

2007-11-09T04:02:00.000-08:00

past week was quite busy..chaotic in some way.. somebodi tel mi sae my blog veri wordy..ok so for ur sake i going to cut short and post more pics..=)

registration

Fresh b4 e match

Mariam taking pic wif her guys...

and KICK OFF~!!!!

1st match was damm rough!!!

others are still fine...

some teams simply OWN e rest..lol's

and ofcourse our refree in white wif "cat"=x

as usual in competitions..some lose..

others wins...

then ofcourse our grp photo for organizers of S.C=)

1 pic where gt enough

and ofcourse classical finishing..my ass=)

well..on wed then gt ppl play until so violent tt a guy broke his ankle..then give us alot of shit to do la..kns.. ambulance came.. president came down and was pissed.. then all e shit go to shawn..damm pity him.. cause alot of tings we cant fore-see or wt right..and injuries are prone to happen when u in street soccer lor..diaos..never fight gd liaox..onli injuries..lol's.. i was hoping to see ppl fight..haha!!..bt haven..damm sianx.. then tt dae left sch at wt..10.45??..damm it la..=.="

and cause of tis D-cup i was kept busy for e whole week..and wt's more..i skipped both of my cds lecture..omg.i am so going to die la can..damm..and nxt week better.. mon-tues D-cup again.. wed - fri.. tp-rawks.. and i am under SU de..wa biang..wtever it is..i knw i am going to be so damm stressed up... and going to hv serious mood swing soon..=.="

2007-11-03T08:27:00.000-07:00

todae went to work..and as usual..all were late for 6.30 meeting at platform of bedok mrt station... then made our way there..

then my job changed..i was e time keeper..wth la...u wan a guy like mi to keep time??..i can coordinate everiting..bt to keep time..damm ma fan la..and for a few times i pressed wrongly..and i knw i am in for shit..=.=" bt i reali dun like doing such tings can...haix..then i tink my supervisor u cal her?.wtever..tt person in charge of my grp of frienz and me knw i hate tt job totally..and gave mi back e job tt i did for e previous time..and atleast i can move around..and nt sit there be so stressed...=.=" and todae was reali tiring..

my dark eye ring is getting thicker la..diaos=.=" and fri i did nt went for my wicky dinner outing(my tbc camp grp) ... then todae after work they sae go eat..bt i did nt join them again..ok..i knw they will start and may hv started tinking tt i am a bastard..keep on pang ser them..bt who cares..i am who i am... i wont go out wif ppl whom i dun enjoy being wif..totally...=x

ELOI ELOI LAMASABACHITANI....

2007-11-02T04:24:00.000-07:00

nth to sae....there are alot of stuff..tat is keeping mi tinking...nonsense...lol's...bt nvm..

ai yoo..i knw my blog veri emo 1..hahax..cause u see..usually i dun sae stuff out..so i jux type out..so if u ppl nt used or wt..then lols..too bad??..or shld i sae..then visit my blog less often..

if u wan a fun-filled blog or wt so ever..sori..no energy to do so..cause usually use all my energy when i am wif other ppl=x

been to a place tt i totally dun wan to go tis week..make mi skip my c-math lect during wed...bt luciky i was able to catch up..tks to zax for ansing all of my question..and is ALOT DE LOR...=x hahax...cause for mi i wan to make tings damm damm clear..=x so i ask alot..

i started dotaing..bt my hamachi failed mi.and i decided to quit dota..fated nt to play game..fated nt to be a gamer for life.except for playing cs..hahax~!!..=x

alot is starting to be expected of mi...being a leader i must say it rocks and it sux..and i am reali nt prepared to be 1..after going thru leadership lect and tut..i realized tt i am reali nt a leader..and i may nt hv e cut to be 1 too..bt leaders are both born and made..so hopefully i can be made a leader..bt its damm diff..leaders need to observe alot of tings...which to me such a slack person..is troublesome... need to control my emotion blah blah... i reali find such ting nonsense.. caUSE i reali believe(and i am right..cause my text books sae so) tt there are different type of leaders.. e way i lead may nt be e way hw others lead..so dun ever compare mi wif them.. as long as i get e grp going.. as long as i lead by example..lead e way i lead my ppl... =x so..dun expect mi to change or wt... a lepoard will never change its spot... i am who i am.. dun change mi...!

tml going to work in SIM at 8 again...for e arena..haix..who ask mi broke..need to work.haix..ku ming de mi!!!>.<.

then yst when hving socio lect..my ex-collegue frm grand hyatt.(remember tt time i work there??..) called mi up..sae she need my help..for christmas..then i ask her when..she sae whole month!!..bt b4 i hv my break..i hv my term-test and all e project handing in..then she tel mi to go after sch..she sae 6-11..bt sometimes i end sch at 7..then she sae 7 lor..diaos..then i sae her off..i go dwn there ard 8 plus alreadi lor..then work for 3 hrs wan mi go back..waste my trip money there right..diaos...( i ofcourse rather dun work la) then she sae like tt ar...when is ur holidae..bt my holidae i dunno i gt GL camp nt..and also dunno am i being shooted for my church christams activity..=x sianx sianx sianx..i need money..bt i no time to earn money!!!..argh...sad sad sad...wt shld i do???..work??..earn money so tt can pay my father back e money i owe him for buying my lappie and then hopefully buy more clothes and jeans... of shld i nt work and rot at home..sianx...

AND I TOTALLY HATE PPL'S VIEW ON ME...DUN TEST MY PATIENT...

2007-10-28T04:22:00.000-07:00

Haix...

1stly...sch de mail sux... totally sux...cause i need to reply a mail to my leadership tutorial teacher to confirm sometings..then my lappie cant send aniting over..wth..then i use my desktop..then sae wt inbox or wt full..then i went to delete..then accidently deleted my teaher's de mail..then try sending again...(lucky i haven close e mail window) bt still sae cannot..like wth la..=.=" then i closed everiting and tried to use my own msn account to send her..then i 4gotten her mail add liaox..diaos..idiot right mi...then i went to ole blah blah to check her mail..then try sending..THEN FAIL!!!!!!!...O_o" post delivery failed...then i give up..dun care..fri then go tel her..irritating...lol's!!!!!...

then yst church was fun..hehex=p its nt e activity...as usual it is alwax boring..bt its e company...yst jacky msg mi at 7..ask mi wan go east coast run nt..i was still slping...so i did nt go la obvious..lol's..bt meeting them for lunch then go for band pract... then ai ya..must admit..missed my sotong for a veri long time le..like 2 weeks never see her le lo=( damm sad...=x cause of her O's..then also quite worried for her=x bt i knw she hv tuition then most of e time she will go eat wif her frienz and then study 2gather..so for e past few weeks alwax no chance meet her..and i was also quite reluctant to msg..cause later kanna "reject" damm sianx 1...=x bt dunno why i jux took my hp and msg her..then i go bath..i was expecting 90% a reject..bt mircale happened..=p she sae ok..blah blah..hahax..

then we met in pp and bought my slippers and then we wanted to go get her shorts de..bt she 4get to bring her wallet which hv e receipt in it..then she blame mi..diaos..wth..lol's..bt nvm la..hahahx=x then we went to meet jacky and san jie...then 2gather wif gan ma we went to eat subway..lol's..is reali like family outing=p went to ecp to eat subway..then sotong dun wan eat..then i force her eat e cookie..=.="

then we took cab to church cause wanna late for band le.. lol's... then band damm sianx i tel u...lucky gt sotong pei mi crap..lol's~!!! then she doing her math..bt most of e time kanna distracted by me..hahax..then i keep on sae her..ask her study... then abt 4..she complain hungry.. then we sneak out go duman food center to makan..lol's...ask shi fu to stand in for mi while i run away..hahax~!..then when we came back pract finish..hving break le..bt we jammed..and i sing lor..san jie play piano..jacky guitar and jie fu drum while da jie lazy!!!!..dun wan play keyboard..then first song still ok..second song..wa piang..hard to sing like hell..bt still sang and yup reali fun..=p

then youth service started then i and sotong sit behind..then playing the car game..then yup had alot of fun la.. as long as gt her de place sure fun de la..=x lol's.. then after service played soccer wif e guys after which went to eat dinner wif jacky san jie and sotong..eat finish ard 8.45 then huri send sotong home b4 going home... well.. jux love e time spend wif u guys..totally... =) tks...hehex..

and we hv alot of plan after sotong O's liaox..we are going to watch movie..going to K-box..she is going to pei mi shop for my shoes, jeans, shorts wtever and then to choose her purse.. going to be damm damm broke...omg~! bt nvm... must see spend wif who and on who..=) so no complains..hehex~!!... loves yea lots..hehex!~!!!

tml sch start again..and lw la..ask mi go sch at 8 to print notes..sianx totally..alwax must print notes for e rest of them..like i owe them like tt..kaox...pissed..irritating.. then tml sch end at 7~!!!.. leadership lect..solo again..boring...=(

Behind every me is simply another me~

2007-10-26T03:52:00.000-07:00

Wow...end of first week of sch!!!...

lol's..sch has been rather relax and i am able to catch up wif the lessons pretty well except for c-math..omg..lol's...studying A-Math nw..and yup..hv difficulity liaox..=.=" cause 1stly i play tim's psp (evo soccer 8) in first lect..and i knw i huo gai..hahax!!..bt lucky frm pestering lw wif alot of questions i am able to understand it nw=p

wow..then wed went for e interview for GL...haha..super interesting..bt super tough also..cause it is a direct camp under the SU(Student Union) so need to go thru interview..then we were split into grps..and i was grp 2gather wif marcus and shawn la..the sub comm head and ass sub comm head..wa biang..stress seh..then ask mi alot of question..wow..damm difficult lor...=x bt still hopefully wif my "gd" talking skills i will be able to get into e camp..and be a GL..then can train OL's(i tink tt is e job of a GL?..=x) hahax..shiok lor..then can lead freshies also..hahax~!!!...

then todae was CDS day..wow..i must say..i reali thank God that i did not drop my CDS...cause when alot ppl tel mi sae good luck ar..both the cds i taking are difficult..and to take them at a same time..GG(Good Game)..so i reali did thought of changing my CDS..bt after much tinking and praying i decided nt to drop and i was still alittle afraid that i am making the wrong choice..bt after going for 2 lect and tutorial i am quite sure tt i am nt regretting it..=p although soico lect rather boring..tt the lab rocks...hahax..my sociol lect is interesting..i find tt both cds are wt god planned for me..lols..cause i love to think abt tings when they are needed or nt needed..so socio makes me tinks alot..and wow..i love it!!!..ok...atleast to a small amount...too much tinking will make mi veri tired..hahax..lazy person..lol's!!!...=p then leadership..erm..i nt sure..bt i love e subject..=) and also have been praying to God.. cause Rj( my church de TAO..of e youth ministry) find tt the existing committee is "no use" bt simply cause they jux wan to step down..and they are stepping down 2gather..tt is e pissing part..so means one shot..we are going to hv a whole new committee..haix..and yup was considering e offer made by him to step up into e main comm..bt it simply means more job..more work..more responsibilties..more tis and less freedom!!!..=.=" sianx.. bt my clique of frien..except for 1 taking her O's nw..the other 2...one got into OCS(officer cadet sch) the other 1 is taking a module on leadership tis sem... and we discussed..its like a sign lei..all leadership linked..omg..tink tis time wan to sneak off the responsibilty cannot liaox..=.=" sianx!!!..hahax~!..so yup going to study well and i hv decided to step up too..sianx...=(

Oh yar!!!..and i hv a new mei liaox=p hehex~!!..her name..qi hui...hahaha...jux enjoy bullying her.. wakakakax.. and i dun care ar hui..u better cal mi kor ESP IN SCH!!!!>.hahax~!!!!.. lol's..~!! =) bt haha.. glad tt hv u as mei..hahax..u so cute...so gd to bully=p hahahx~!!!!!..

and meh meh todae pang ser mi lor.knw u wan to go home...sad sia..=( haix...in e end..haix.. =( so sad wif meh meh..sad sad sad...haix...no comments..sad..=(

I AM BORN A HOST...NOT A GUEST!!!

2007-10-24T05:14:00.000-07:00

OKIES~!!!!....

knw i hv been mia for quite some-time..reason..LAZY...lol's...

sch started....1st dae of sch alreadi end at 7..wth can i expect man...=.=" 4-6 break...cause my leardership lect starts at 6=.=" in biz sch..and yup..lucky gt e rest pei mi awhile..b4 going for their own lectures for CDS at 5...wanted to crash french lecture de..bt in e end...omg...ppl crash it le..no space for mi to go and crash at all lo..damm sianx i tel u..hahax... so i solo/emo/sad go library lvl 2 e sofas there go read book for an hr b4 going for my lect... alot ppl sae leadership tough blah blah blah blah bt i find still ok ba...i still find e lectuer damm interesting.!!!>.< mi=")

then erm..yup..catched up wif my class mates alot..ok...most of us made it together..bt elfy,azim is gone..cause..they slacked too much..nw they are like refugee..no proper class..going to diff class in diff lessons..haha..they kept complaining to mi when i saw them..hahax..well..too bad??..work hard lor..duH~!..hahax..then yup...fun fun fun in class..ok la..nt reali..

cause i got to knw tis ting frm jesslyn...she told mi tt guan peng (tt jerk) sae tt he did nt go all e outings cause I NG JUN WEI IS GOING FOR E OUTINGS!!!...wth right...well..i reali dun like him..his working attitude and so on..everibodi knw it..he once bad mouthed mi lw zax dave and joel behind our back we shut our mouth liaox..never go complain to miss joanna tt he never come for our iiso grp meeting and involvement rate is like 20%...wth lor... then he sae tt.. i dunno i shld go and do some reflection or wt la...bt if i hate somebodi i dun hide it..tis is mi...is either frien or foe..simple as tt..tt is me..then i told jess..wa then nxt time our outing i dun go lor..let him go..and u knw wt she sae..OKIES..VERY GOOD....

well...when i heard tt..is like..my heart sank...nt cause of bgr tt kind..bt can u imagine..u willing to step up to be e organizer of all e shit in all e outing..event of ur class..u've done so much where nobodi wanna do..u gave ur time u gave ur attention u gave ur all for e outings..e b/d parties..suprises and so on and so forth..digging time out of my alreadi busy schedule...all i wan is for some1 to appericate me..for some1 to jux simply say a word of thank you...or jux show tt u enjoy..i'm pleased...i'm hapi le..bt to hear someting like tt...it is reali damm sad...OKIES VERY GOOD.... so all tis while..e outing i was a nuisence?..i was extra?..tinking tt i am e leader of e class..tinking tt i am e "ceo" of e class... it sucks man...FCUK IT LA!!!!...i am damm pissed and sad la... she herself was a organizer b4..for mi and yy b/d.. she knw hw hard it is to come out wif a b/d party itself.. she jux done 1..and she complained like shit..while i have been doing it for everi single person b/d la..everi single outing...even go where eat..even after sch go where slack..all i tink..esp b/d..need to tink of ways to give suprises..need to plan tis and tt..yet i got a OKIES VERI GOOD for mi nt going..

to hear it frm jess...it some wt hurt more..i alwax thought of her as a sister...although i alwax disturb her..although she alwax give mi extreme attitude..i swallowed it..i shutted my mouth...i did nt throw my temper i controlled it totally...and to hear it frm her..one of which whom i tink is a matured girl..whom is a veri kind and sweet lady..i am damm sad and i gt nth to sae.. her b/d is tommo..i am still going to organize it..bt i am nt going..tt is for sure.. i dun wan to go and spoilt her mood on tt veri day..her special day...better to make myself scare frm e b/d dinner e rest going to hv wif her..mainly cause i'm sad and disappointed..i knw i am emo-ing..bt after all those tt happen..who wont?..after all tt is happening in my life..who won't?..

e other reason is also..e couple is going...so i'm nt going..i dun wan go there and make tings awkard...

i am reali nt feeling good..i love tis class alot..reali reali alot..bt simply jux sometings hv to get mi back..e closer e person is to u...e greater amount of hurt they are able to dealt u wif... and i hv been dealt wif a heavy blow... life sucks... who cares???... cant believe it...

Behind every me is simply another me.....

LAZY!!!!

2007-10-21T02:08:00.000-07:00

17/10

Wow..todae went back sch for e first time in tis month..hahax...was late to meet e rest at 9.45(although e timing is i set de) hahax..then went i enter e LT...all of them were like.."tks ar...9.45" hahaha...bt start 10 ma..i enter at 10.05 ok wt..=x hahaha... after which we went o makan at KFC...that is when i tim lw and wj crap all e way..hahax... then we and e girls sat 3 tables apart...dunno why bt we simply sat apart..hahax~!!! then we headed for Marina for K box~!!!...shoik lor....

And we started singing...

and ofcourse there are those whom dun wan to sing...so we simply hv to force them to sing..AKA LEE WEI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And oFcourse our main purpose of going k-box is to celebrate these 2 girls b/d..although both are nt on e actual day and are like..still far frm it.. bt as i expect our time-table will be veri veri different once sch reopen..so it will be damm hard to find and organize a time for everibodi to come and celebrate e birthdaes..so why nt earlier...=) yup and these are e 2 girls=)

then is cake cutting..and see hw jess and jm cut e cake..wa biang...even the happy b/d sign ting went into e cake along wif e knife la..wa biang.. dunno hw they cut..bt in e end..e outcome is nice..

then its eating of cake!!!!

then ofcourse...PHOTO-SHOOTING TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and tis is e present tt we gave to jess...=)

18-20/10

then was working....lol's...need to reach SIM at 8...wth la...means i need to wake up damm early..and yup..i wakes up at 5.30..gay right...wth la...then go there..ok la..my grp of ppl are veri nice...they treat mi ok..and e girls there pretty lor..as in my grp de..hahax...SIM GIRLS...WOW!!!!...=x hahaha.. bt e food there cannot make it la..=.=" and i onli hv abt 1 hr break..however first dae i onli gt 30 min lor..wa biang..damm "LONG LA"...=.=" hahax...bt e work is fun...however quite sianx..hahax...cute girls frm diff sch..rocks man..hahax!!!!=x then...i am being paid 80 bucks per dae..erm..is alot lor..8-5 onli..then 80 bucks..minus 1 hr break..wow..shiok lor..=p and i am going back to work on e 3rd of nov..for e second round of audition..hehex!!..too good liaox..they wan mi=p

21.10.07

todae afternoon met up wif meh meh and had lunch wif her..actually is had a drink wif her onli..=p AND YAR!!!!...MAKE MI WAIT SO LONG!!!!!!!..argH!!!!!...lol's...nxt time i'll be late for 1 hr liaox la!!!!...meet u can early le!!!!.hahax...u dun regert=p lol's... then although time spend nt long..bt talked alot of tings..and found out tt she is in love wif some1..hahax...bad girl wor..hahahx..=p i knew it...u gt so mani rumour..lol's..=p and nxt time la..nxt time then i go for ur CG ba..=) todae cause i planned to do other tings so no time go for ur CG...=)

tommo start sch le..and my cds is leadership and Sociology...alot alot and i mean ALOT ppl sae tt my cds is damm difficult..i dunno...i am quite sianx..cause i am able to go and opt to change my cds nxt week...bt i dunno i wan to change nt.. i reali like my cds..i am veri interested in e subjects..bt if its difficult then i knw i hv to spend alot time studying e subject...and ofcourse, i am a guy whom is a born slacker...omg..i reali dunno go where find e self-discipline to study and work hard..and new frienz...means new grp mates.if grp mates sux..my result sux...i dunno..i am like giving myself damm alot of stress...cause ok i am stepping up into main comm for e youth..means alot more commitment..then i hv my iitsc sub-comm commitment...then i hv my studies...and subjects difficult..and i hv high expectation of myself...i am nt quite pleased wif my result last sem...i wan to get more then that..that is why i am feeling stressed..studying sux...haix...i dunno la...aRgh~!!!...irritating..bt God's shall provide for mi tt is 1 ting for sure..no doubt..i can do all things thru Him..and ONLI THRU HIM all tings can be done...=)

all e best for mi ba=p tml marks the start of another stressful and boring cycle of life...=x

2007-10-16T07:34:00.000-07:00

Eventually...i went out wif them todae...and i TOTALLY REGRETTED IT!!!!!!!

ok..firstly i alreadi made up my mind..dun go and waste money wif them..then melinda came to psyco me...then is like..ok la..melinda,raymond they all gt go..so like dun wan to pang ser tt few frienz tt i am ok wif..i decided to go...meeting place was at P.S ..they wanted to catch a movie...so they met at 2..and i did nt go..cause i will onli meet them after their movie..so i went alone at ard 5..its was drizzling...and i lazy bring umbrella so i walked w/h umbrella.. and it was damm cold..=x then dave msg mi..tel mi change of plan..nt watching movie..and i replied him sae then? go where...and i am on e train liaox..then when i reach until city hall..he haven reply...then i msg melinda..she sae parkway...i was like...WTH!!!!!!!!!!!....quite pissed...means i need to take trian back to eunos and walk and take bus again!!!... then took bus there..went to play pool awhile then go mac da bao then they sae wan go katong shopping center..then ask them why then dun wan sae...then reach there they sae go sing song..someting like K-Box.. ok..firstly...no money..secondly..tml i singing k le..todae sing again..kuku la..then i sae i nt going..then i and anothe guy decided to go off..cause he stay tamp..then can go back 2gather..

bt e room of e "k-box" is 54..so hw mani ppl go u jux divide among urself..so more ppl go means lesser $$...lesser ppl go means more $$$$...then i and another guy dun wan to go tt time..they sae huh?! u 2 also nt going?! then they gave us the F*** la face...was damm pissed then la...u never plan properly then wan to sing never tel us expect us to super enthu mer..wa kaox..then 4get it la..i straight go home..damm it...lol's...waste of time going out todae..bt went to show my face atleast nxt outing i can run away le..hahaha...!!!

then come back..someting wrong wif router...suddenly gt prob then user change...become not security-enabled..then like wth la..morning i use ok..then my bro use gt prob..then nw my fault again..he alwax like tt de sia..last time use same com alittle of prob when i jux on then i ask him why then he blame all on me..ask mi pay tis and tt..nw e router i buy..then someting wrong he sae nt him nt him..push all e blame to mi..then i sae him then he fa pi qi at mi scold mi all e *@#(&%(*$&%(*#..... i reali cannot see ani reason for mi to respect tt loser..frm small until big..no doubt..i am damm alot smarter then him..e tings he can do i can do better..the tings he cannot do i can do..i dun need ppl teach i can go figure out myself..tt ass hole..when i teach him..then my cousin ask he sae he teach mi de..is like wth... then when someting wrong cause of his mistake..he sae mi..my fault...wth la.. last time i was reali a retard in com..then went i go MWC..1st sem also haven over he expect mi to knw alot of tings..then sae u stupid or wt..bt wt he knw is jux to buy new part and change..wth la..is nt e hardware spoilt lor..is our software then he force mi to fork out to pay also sae wt cause i gt use then sae wt is u make spoilt..idiot right..tt is why i hate my bro..i nvr like him and will never like him..i knw tt..i hate him i hate him and i HATE HIM..tt loser... damm it.. i look down on such ppl... u wan my respect u earn it..u dun force mi to respect u..otherwise i'll F*** u ...idiot...=x damm pissed...

Todae is nt a gd dae..i can sae..shld hv jux stayed at home in e afternoon and go out at night...wif other frienz or wtever...hate to stay at home..cause will see tt loser..damm it..ppl's family can hapi hapi laughter filled...my family...quarrel filled and hatred surrounded...

2007-10-15T05:03:00.000-07:00

todae went to my guy hse to play 2gather..lol's..although veri childish bt atleast spent some time wif them...hahax..went to gordon's hse to play X-Box..game..Halo-2..lol's..i sux in e game la..hahax..bt still ok la..i and gordon tag team we defeat danny and wewe and jordy...lol's...steady hor...cause gordon he gd la..hahax..and went to his hse tt time its raining like omg!!!...so damm ma fan...then we went to play soccer wif a veri small ball outside his hse..like hw we alwax do..hahax...along e corridor..hahax..and resulted in my slippers giving way and spoilt..cause of e gordon la..step on it..ars!!!!...bt nvm la..play game wt..haha..then after tt went home liaox.. some pics on e weather and the gaming...

see the weather..omg..e cloud looks so..erm...weird?..u see e face??

playing X-Box...lol's...

and super sianx..tml wickey(which is e name of my grp in camp) gt another outing..go watch movie..which firstly i dunno wt e hack is it..secondly i no money..thirdly i see no point..=x cause feel rather left out in e grp...bt dave can glue quite well wif them..i dunno why i cant..although i still ok wif a few of them..bt mostly i jux cant find ani common topic to talk abt or wt lei..their mind set..game game game game..wa biang..=x no offence..bt i dun game..so difficult to connect sia our bluetooth..hahax.. so find no point in going for e sake of going..cause i knw i dun wan to go...=x bt e last outing i never go le..then tis outing dun go again..=x bt i rather spend time wif e "right ppl"..reali...haix..super sianx..bt dun go need find excuse means need to lie..=x which i dun wan..lol's..although i knw i quite gd in it..lol's..how how how???...ai ya..damm fandamm pissed!!!!!..dunno y they gt so mani outing 1 sia..one month 1 time la..bt theirs like 1 week 1 time..last week no outing so peaceful..then they sae no outing..tis week must outing..O_o" although i veri ON..bt must see wif who then i ON wt..=x so nw still tinking shld i go or nt..dun go means rot at home..=x haha..and i prefer tt=x hahax.. ok shall see hw..

sch reopening soon.. means need to be prepared for all e rushing of projects and buring of super late mid night oil to catch up wif classes..cause i cant study normally..i can onli study when all is asleep which is mid night 2 plus...haix...life...bo bian...bt poly rocks..damm fun..hahax..=) never regreted going poly...=) (also cause i cant go JC la..bt if can go i also wont go lor..life is so like sec sch..damm sianx 1..hahax..so poly rocks!!!)

2007-10-14T09:42:00.000-07:00

THANK YOU YANG LIN....

THANK YOU YING...

THANK YOU THE 2 Y'S..

LOVE YEAH'S!!!!!!

HAHAX..>~<

2007-10-14T07:01:00.000-07:00

jux nw went to meet ying to study...and i found out tt my math still nt bad de okies...up to standard..lols..although some i forget e rest i all still remember lor..haven return to teacher yet=p bt she todae have no interest in studying at all lor...wa biang...i also knw why la...bt i still forced her to study atleast abit...lol's...cause e purpose of todae was to study..hehe!!. so yup..after much pestering frm her...i decided to go walk walk liaox..lols..and once we walk...we walk until dunno wt time...nobodi cares..hahax...and then we go makan dinner 2gather..

crap..shld hv took her pic down..hahax...lol's...she sae dun need pai sae in front of me..which is true la..knw each other so long liaox still need to be pai sae mer..hahax..all kind of pattern also come out liaox lor..and i must sae!!!..YOU TODAE EAT REALI VERI FAST...compared to last time remember we go mac eat or where..then u eat damm slow de=x hahaha..so todae u reali eat veri fast le...oh yar..and i almost blow my top lor..cause i never put e tissue on tt person table then he come and sae i put..wa biang..i hate being accused...totally hate it..bt see..i ta han..hahax..girl...my temper better le wor..steady hor..hahax..gentleman lep...lol's..then todae..omg..went into so mani girly stall...=.=" totally cant ta han de lor..hahax~!!!... bt nvm la.. u lucky..todae gd mood..and long time never see u..so todae all u big..hahax...=x then went to play ground to chat and took alot of pics..

eRm...girl...i knw hw u feel..sux right??..nvm la..life sux...bt lets jux make e best out of our situation...study well...strive for ur O's and put all ur troubles aside..dun bother abt it..concentrate on ur O's..then after O's we go out again k?..=p go K...=) so long no see u...felt tt u matured liaox..reali matured..i'm hapi and sad..=x hapi tt u've grown up..sad tt u tink too much and kept everiting to urself..i dun care..nxt time aniting must tel mi..otherwise i kick ur pi gu...hahax~! reali glad tt i never go out tonight and talked to u..=x i shy liaox la..=x bt tks for coming out and spend time 2gather..=) nxt time come out i wont ask u study le..i promise k?..hahax~!

some pics of us

we sat until veri straight to avoid the light..lol's..

dunno wt r u doing lor..like kula bear...lol's...

if u ask me..although todae did nt do alot of tings..bt e time spend was veri enjoyable..and i reali appericate and thank God for u..=) thank you for stepping into my life and more importantly...staying in it....=) loves...

2007-10-13T20:38:00.000-07:00

Well..browsed thru my frien blog and saw this interesting ting..and so i went to do it..erm..overall..i tink i have a rather balanced personailty??..hahax...bt nt bad lei...

You Are 38% Selfish

In general, you are a very giving person who treats others very well.But at times, you insist on getting your way - when it matters most to you.

http://www.blogthings.com/howselfishareyouquiz/">How Selfish Are You?

You Are a Pretty Good Liar

Your lies are somewhat believable, but sometimes you get caught.Work on keeping your body language and emotions calm. And you'll be a better liar in no time!

http://www.blogthings.com/areyouagoodliarquiz/">Are You a Good Liar?

You Are Mint Green

Balanced and calm, you have mastered the philosophy of living well.Your friends seek you out for support, and you are able to bring stability to chaotic situations.You're very open and cheerful - and you feel like you have a lot of freedom in life.Your future may hold any number of exciting things, and you're ready for all of them!

http://www.blogthings.com/whatcolorgreenareyouquiz/">What Color Green Are You?

You Are Adventurous... Sometimes

You like an adrenaline rush as much as the next person. You like your thrills in small doses.You're generally pretty calm and level headed. But sometimes you have to go wild and have a crazy adventure.

http://www.blogthings.com/areyouathrillseekerquiz/">Are You a Thrill Seeker?

You Are 58% Peaceful

In general, you think the world's a pretty great place - and you're happy to be a part of it.Sometimes you struggle with life, but who doesn't? You are quite level headed, though you have more inner angst than you'd like.

http://www.blogthings.com/howpeacefulareyouquiz/">How Peaceful Are You?

You Are an Okay Student

You know how to get by school, but your heart isn't always in it.Motivation is a problem for you. Maybe you need to study something more exciting!

http://www.blogthings.com/areyouagoodstudentquiz/">Are You a Good Student?

Your Worry Factor is 58%

While you're not a worrywart, you worry more than you should.Maybe you don't have enough to keep your mind occupied at times...Or perhaps you've trapped yourself into some bad thinking patterns.Try to worry less and enjoy life more. There's no point thinking about things you can't change!

http://www.blogthings.com/doyouworrytoomuchquiz/">Do You Worry Too Much?

then later going to meet ying to pei her study...and i am going to start revising on my C-Math...i knw nxt sem going to be tough..bt well...when tings get tough...the tough get going...my moto..=p

2007-10-13T06:14:00.000-07:00

OKIES...

first and for most..i want to thank KOH YANG LIN for helping mi open tis blog..lol's...i was watching my huan huan ai when she told mi..she dunno hw to change e skin for my blog..then ask mi do myself..then i was like huh?..wt??..u creating blog for mi??..then she sae yar..and i was like..wa?????....lols..well..cause nt mani will do such tings for others and so willingly..i did nt bug her or wt so ever lep..and i was alittle bit touched la..=x haha..and reali..

A BIG BIG THANK YOU....KOH YANG LIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

12/10/07

then yst went shopping...1st time shop frm morning to night...san jie and jacky reali power sia..wth~!..maddness...hahax~!!!.. bt super enjoyed spending quality time 2gather...although e most important 1 to me is missing bt nvm..atleast gt e other 2 of them..=p

then shop veri long..cant find a shirt i like or i shld sae i can fit in..cause gt 1 i like..bt too small..as i'm fat...so hard to buy clothes..damm it...i wan to jian fei...~! so tt i can buy clothes easily...omg..sound so girly..=.=" lol's.. and after shopping finish e whole of orchard...we decided to go bugis..which is a so damm right decision..cause i managed to find my clothes there..gt 2 tops..which i liked...lol's..and i can fit in..lol's...so wa seh..suddenly so excited..hahax..hype..and jacky gt a whole set at one of e shop which we never hear b4 bt liked e clothes and bottoms...lol's..and i am quite broke le...=.="

my sec sch frien still ask mi go play soccer for his team..which means need to buy BOOTS..JERSEY..and so on..e jersey is 60 bucks...e boots..dun need sae..100..omg..i still owe my dad money for buying e lappie..and nw here i am spending like nobodi business..=x feel bad..bt i wan to get more tops!!!..hahax...cause reali shortage of shirt..hahax..so who wan pei mi shop????

11/10/07

met up wif yl,lw and eunice to hang out and makan...lols..and she dozed off in e mrt..omg...gt so boring mer go out wif mi??...=x boring symptoms...lol's... see e food that we bought!!

Lol's...yl's "roasted pork" and my "power kuey teow" cause damm hot!!!!...

and after dinner..ofcourse supper...and see..he's enjoying it lor..hahax..gd bro seh...

and then..stoning...btw..onli she stone till like tt..omg..tinking of which guy..?

then took pics b4 we left...and yup...e 3 of them..nice right???..i mean e lightings...hahax...

nw e 3 of us e turn..nice right??...i do nt mean e lighting..e whole pic...hahahx..=x